Step 103 - I am honored by God. Entry for Step 102 - There is much I must unlearn.
Greetings All –
YOU ARE HONORED BY GOD, and yet this statement can inflame your sense of uncertainty, arouse your sense of guilt, confuse your sense of pride and stimulate all manner of conflict that actually exists within you now. In the past you have attempted to be something unreal, and it has failed you. Now you are afraid to be anything for fear that failure will pursue you once again. Thus, greatness appears to be littleness and littleness appears to be greatness, and all things are seen backwards or reversed from their true meaning.
YOU ARE HONORED BY GOD whether you can accept this or not. It is true regardless of human evaluation, for only things that are beyond evaluation are true. We are taking you to that which is beyond evaluation, which will be the greatest discovery possible in this life or in any life.
UPON THE HOUR REPEAT THIS STATEMENT and consider it seriously. In your two practice periods, allow your mind once again to be still and receptive so that you may learn to receive the honor that God has for you. Surely, this honor must be directed towards a part of you that you are barely aware of. It is not your behavior that is honored. It is not your idealism that is honored. It is not your beliefs, your assumptions, your demands or your fears. These may be for good or for ill. These may serve you or betray you. But honor is reserved for something greater, which you are now learning to recognize.
PRACTICE 103: Two 30-minute practice periods.
Yesterday: Step 102 - There is much I must unlearn.
From the Journal:
8:42 A.M. Wednesday, October 27, 1999 – “There is much I must unlearn.” – S2K – That was part of ACIM. I remain open to my strange life, or is it my life within the strange.
Not much in the journal. Lots of green ink.
This records the notion: "one local world." This may have been the first time I recorded this thought. Eventually it became, "Think local planet," the planet being a single region and a whole.