Step 96 - God's Will is for me to be unburdened. Entry for Step 95 - How can I possibly fulfill myself?
Greetings All –
GOD’S FIRST STEP IN YOUR REDEMPTION and your empowerment is to unburden you from things that are not necessary for your happiness, to unburden you from things which cannot possibly satisfy you, to unburden you from things which only cause you pain and to lift from your head the crown of thorns that you wear, which represents your attempt at fulfillment in the world. A Greater Will exists within you that wishes to express itself. When you experience this, you will finally feel that you are known to yourself. You will finally experience true happiness, for your life at last will be integrated. You must be unburdened to make this discovery. Nothing of value will be taken from you. It is not God’s intent to make you lonely and forlorn, but to give you the opportunity to realize your true promise so that you may proceed with strength and true motivation.
THEREFORE, ACCEPT THIS FIRST GREAT OFFER to unburden you from the hopeless conflicts that you attempt to resolve, from meaningless pursuits which lead you nowhere, from false promises of this world and from your own idealism which paints a picture the world cannot possibly support. In simplicity and humility the greatness of life will dawn upon you, and you will know that you have given away nothing for something of the greatest value.
UPON THE HOUR REPEAT THIS STATEMENT and think about it. Observe its meaning in terms of your current circumstances. Observe its demonstration in the lives of people all around you. Observe its reality in terms of your own existence, which you are now learning to witness objectively.
IN YOUR TWO LONGER PRACTICE PERIODS TODAY, attempt to concentrate on this idea and apply it to your life specifically. Actively engage your mind and try to think of the meaning of this statement in terms of your current ambitions, your current plans, and so forth. Many things may be cast in doubt as you do this, but realize that Knowledge is not affected by your schemes and plans or by your hopes and disappointments. It is only awaiting the time when it can emerge naturally within you, and you will be the first recipient of its great gifts.
PRACTICE 96: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly practice.
What will it mean in your life to be unburdened? This will take some time to figure out. Begin consideration of this idea today.
Yesterday: Step 95 - How can I possibly fulfill myself?
From the Journal:
October 22, 1999 What is fulfillment
6:02 p.m. Home – burned out – lots to do at work – no movie tonight. My goal is to leave the office by age 55 – that is two years. Things won’t be in place. That could come sooner. I will complete S2K by July 1, 2000. At this moment I hardly need anything.
7:04 p.m. After meditation – suddenly very cold – fulfillment?
[PDC – is the work ever done? How can you tell?
Have I come here for work? → no it is for the art
In one way or another, all souls on earth are working together. This shall become more clear of necessity – still its lack of visibility does not make it an untrue thought.
If you are watching the date, you’ll note that the day should be October 20, but is the 22nd. It seems I got things out of order in 1999.