Greetings All –
GOD DOES KNOW MORE ABOUT YOU THAN YOU DO. That must
be obvious if you have considered yourself honestly. And yet, consider the
implications of this. If God knows more about you than you do, then would not
God’s evaluation be something that you would want to learn to investigate? Of
course it would. And would not your evaluations of yourself be necessarily in
error? In this alone you have sinned, for sin is only error. Error calls for
correction, not condemnation. You would condemn yourself and think that God would
then follow your example and render to you a greater condemnation. That is why
people have made God in their image, and that is why you must unlearn what you
have made, so that you may find what you know and so that your creations in
this world may be for good and have lasting value.
GOD KNOWS MORE ABOUT YOU THAN YOU DO. Do not
pretend you can create yourself, for you have already been created and that which
has been genuinely created is far greater and happier than the life that you
have realized thus far. It is your unhappiness that is bringing you to truth,
for it is driving you to a genuine resolution. This, of course, is true.
ON THE HOUR REPEAT THIS STATEMENT and consider it
seriously. As you do so, observe the world around you in order to attempt to learn
of the meaning of today’s idea in the world. In your longer practice sessions
in stillness, allow your mind to become quiet so that it
may learn to enjoy its greatness. Give it this
opportunity for freedom, and it will give freedom to you in return.
PRACTICE 104: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly
practice.
Yesterday: Step
103 - I am honored by God.
From the Journal:
12:40
A.M. Thursday, October 28, 1999 –
I
have a great vision for the earth that I wish to give. It may be simplistic –
given the people that run the show. …
7:54
A.M. Alignment – a master concept. I’m having trouble here staying in body. I
want to go home – but my babies have to come too. They can’t/won’t for they
have their own lives here.
Align
– grow – realign – grow align – change – realign-
>Time
to actively seek a new/different job where I can carry on my learning.
Infrastructure
is treated like dirt, like it’s always been there. The regional alignment
strategy can simplify the realignment process.
Awareness
– but no joy. S2K- “I am honored by God.” But the portion/aspect of me being
honored – I do not know.
Again
the head lightens and there is the desire to leave the body and its work
behind.
…
8:40
p.m. Ready to mediate. The world is looking different these days. At 53 I wonder
if I thought I’d live this long and how boring things could get, and how much
change is behind me. I observe the growth of the Valley. I’ve played a part,
but that part is invisible. I’m not even certain what it is.
Today’s
focus, “I am honored by God,” is not for me alone – it must be true for all. In
Food Lion – parents with young children fussing – I’m irritated slightly – but know
I was once there and wonder how people looked at me, how they felt, if the
judged. So many people going about their lives. Me removed – looking – watching.
Much was written, but what does it have to do with
the Step? Good question. Our lives proceed and the brain can work very hard to
figure things out, and be mistaken in doing so. Once again, the Step page has
much green ink and is also the journal for the day.
NNC
