Greetings All –
IN YOUR REVIEW ONCE AGAIN REVIEW all of the
instructions of the lessons and everything that you have experienced thus far
in the past week of practice. Honestly evaluate your engagement with these
lessons and recognize what they have yielded for you in terms of understanding.
Try to be very fair in your assessment. Remember that you are a student. Do not
claim that you have realized more than you have actually experienced.
THE SIMPLICITY OF THIS APPROACH may seem obvious,
but for many people it is very difficult to achieve, for they are so used to thinking
that they have more than they have or less than they have that it is very
difficult for them to assess their actual circumstances even though their circumstances are quite obvious.
IN YOUR ONE LONG PRACTICE PERIOD, then, review your
lessons and consider each one in depth, recalling your activity with them on the
day that they were given and your understanding of them at this moment. Review
each of the six previous steps very carefully and beware of making conclusions
that do not represent your true experience. It is better to be uncertain than
to have false conclusions.
PRACTICE 98: One long practice period.
Yesterday: Step
97 - I do not know what fulfillment is.
This has been a busy week. Keep going as best you can.
From the Journal:
7:32
A.M. Thursday, October 21 – woke up in an aggressive/confrontational dream – a meeting/hearing
o planning/water issues …
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Fulfilment – I am fulfilled when my life has purpose. When I am present to
assist others and make the beautiful planet, if only for a few moments. What is
tiring, unfulfilling – is to be attacked for being honest.
I
withhold honesty and become depressed because a more true perspective is not
accepted. Being honest – I often have not lived the truth.
I am
most fulfilled – on the path, in the woods, - in quiet & meditation – at Little
Bear and Su-Ne – the wall and with the tri-maple. The forest is nature being
nature within environmental and man-made constraints.
9
A.M. Floating am I. It is hard to imagine that all six billion souls on earth
would do S2K. ACIM says it is a mandatory course – I don’t think I got all of
it/most of it/though I’ve experienced the Holy Instant. That was fulfilling –
but the body, it seems, cannot stay there – or it is the earth relationships
which draw us back to the manifest. →
drew me
Knowing the HI I gave the world another
chance. We are here and I don’t know why? Life is moving, but I don’t know –
can’t know (?) the destination.
Perhaps when I’m dead these words might
find the eyes, hearts and minds of others who seek the impossibility fo the
part knowing the whole.
I walk this day blessed for I
volunteered to be here – “Here am I, send me.” Knowing love was the mission,
but not knowing the territory.
Amen
& Amen
T-om
Su-ne
11:24 p.m. A surprising good reading … I am in the flow – S2K is working. I am
being fulfilled – the message needs to go further. In the next year – I will
collect my thoughts; prepare to take my insights to a bigger audience.
A good day is recorded. I have gotten readings over
the years in order to assist is my self-assessment. I learned early on to
protect myself by saying: “I surround myself with the love and the grace of
God.” That may or may not be helpful in your life. It is a decision you’ll have
to make. The experiences of others can be helpful. A bit of skepticism is
always useful.
NNC
