Greetings All –
YOUR LIFE IS A MYSTERY. Your origin, your purpose
here and your destination when you leave are very mysterious. They can only be
experienced to be comprehended. How can you, at this given moment, understand
the mystery of your life? You would have to be at the end of your life to
understand what has transpired thus far, and you are not at the end of your
life in the world. You would have to see the world from your Ancient Home to
understand the true meaning of the world. You are in the world now, so you must
be present to the world. Yet, this mystery can be experienced and must be
experienced. You cannot understand it at this moment, but in this moment you
can experience it fully. Within this experience, it will yield to you all of
the things that you now need to take the vital step that is waiting for you to
take.
THEREFORE, DO NOT BURDEN YOUR MIND with the
requirement of understanding, for you will seek the impossible and will only confuse
yourself and add to the burden of your thinking. Rather, give yourself to
experience the mystery of your life with wonder and appreciation that the world
is far greater than what your senses have reported thus far and that your life
is far greater than what your judgments have determined.
REPEAT THIS IDEA UPON THE HOUR and practice your
RAHN meditation twice today with great depth and sincerity. Allow your practice
today to reaffirm your commitment to Knowledge, for you need only follow the
steps as they are given.
PRACTICE 137: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly
practice.
A good deal of information is presented in this
Step, bringing together threads already introduced. The first time one can
mostly just read the words. Great understanding may be had though, with greater
in the future.
Yesterday: Step
136 - My purpose is to reclaim my Knowledge and to allow it to express itself
in the world.
From the Journal:
6:21
A.M. Tuesday, Nov 30
7:30
A.M. S2K 136 – Presents a fearful scenario. It affirms “My purpose is to
reclaim my Knowledge and to allow it to express itself in the world.” 136 My fear is that my Knowledge is an Atomic Bomb
that would destroy me – on one hand, or more likely, a flickering match that
would embarrass me. The word repetition of RAHN also makes me uneasy. This
thinking further isolates me by through – and reduces my desire for my current
work. …
10
p.m. A wasted evening; Food, Food, Food. No RAHN meditation. Losing it? I do
not know.
10:25
p.m. What has meaning – it all falls away…am I even here?
Having a rough day; you might have those too.
Still, I kept on. You should too.
NNC