Greetings All –
TODAY BE CONFIDENT THAT YOU ARE IN PREPARATION on
the path to Knowledge. Be confident today that Knowledge is with you and abides
with you and that you are now learning step by step to receive its grace, its
certainty and its direction. Be confident this day that you are born of God’s
love and that your life in this world, this brief visit here, is but an
opportunity to re-establish your true identity in a place where it has been
forgotten. Be confident today that the efforts that you are now making on your
own behalf will lead you to the great goal that you have come here to seek
because this preparation comes from your Ancient Home to serve you while you are
in the world, for you have come to the world to serve.
REPEAT THIS AFFIRMATION UPON THE HOUR and consider
it in light of all things that happen today. In your two longer practice periods,
repeat the statement and then allow yourself to enter peace and stillness.
Allow your confidence to dispel fear, doubt and anxiety. Support your efforts
today, for they require your support on behalf of a greater certainty that you
are now learning to receive.
PRACTICE 141: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly
practice.
Note: “…you
have come to the world to serve.” Early in my life I understood the goal was to serve the will of God, but
that seemed to be at odds with my will – use of my free will. In ACIM I learned
there was no difference between my will and God’s will. The challenge then
becomes to determine what that might be? Steps to Knowledge is a way to get a
personal understanding of what that is in one’s life.
Yesterday: Step 140 -
Review
From the Journal:
Saturday,
Dec 4, 1999
7:10
A.M. Practice first – I may not get to hike today, or get to Little Bear to do
the review, so that’s what I want to do today – my 20 week review.
Step
140 says: “You wish to be the servant and the Master all at once because the
servant is in you and the Master is in you. You personally are not the Master,
but the Master is in you. You personally are a servant, but you are in
relationship with the Master, and so your union is complete.”
Reflecting
on the above, it struck me as an accurate description – the picture in my mind
was that of the atom – a proton and an electron. – God/the Master is the proton
and I am the electron. Relative to the proton, the electron has little mass. So
the basic relationship in the manifest universe is the atom. Now with the atom
there is a mix of the sub-atomic particles – so this is a metaphor, though it
may work down to the first yes – when manifestation began. A neutron is perhaps
better – for a fused soul and the proton – electron – a new personality. The greater
atomic structure – is a combination of neutrons and proton- electron pairs. +
& - charges –
Step
134 says “live by experience and understanding.” Region work – cooperation comes
from my experience and understanding → geography can
be the basis of community, but its not guaranteed.
This
has become my direction, though its not necessarily my purpose in this life.
→The
idea the RAHN stimulates memory of ancient Knowledge – I resisted the work – it
is a harsher sound then “om” or “hu.” It is to give strength – I notice now in
Step 134. The pronunciation brings to mind Iran dn Tehran – is the word related
to Persia – Zoroaster? Also Hahn – as in the Hahn Commission.
Aahn
Bahn
Cahn
Dahn
Eahn
Fahn
Gahn
Hahn
Iahn
Jahn - John
Kahn
Lahn
Mahn
– man
Nahn
Oahn
Pahn
Qahn
Rahn
Sahn
Than
Uahn
Vahn
Wahn
Xahn
Yahn
Zahn
1:20
p.m. Today feels weird. Spent the A.M. moving things out of the basement
& into the garage. In 9 years of
marriage I’ve not had time to straighten up the garage. My spiritual growth has
been the primary past time. It merges with work now in greater community –
regions work. That is a match at the present, but I’m open – it is not the
definitive definition.
…
3
p.m. > Rural regions named for geographic features – urban regions named for
central cities. Market is an overlay – governmental based geographic regions.
>
feeling lost still. I need to hike and go to the VSB reception.
→
Knowledge will indicate all things that must be done for you – (not by me – for
me?) – physically, emotionally, mentally –
20 week review complete. This I will
stick with and complete the year – then to see what is next.
Love
T-om
Su-ne
9:30 p.m. – Corn, tobacco at Truth –
tonight. The message – truth is peace.
In the journal entries for this review, a better
bread crumb trail was left than on most days. The key point, which I only remember by reading ti
here in my journal is: “20
week review complete. This I will stick with and complete the year – then to
see what is next.” You
may have already made such a commitment, or are not ready to do so. Regardless,
when you reach such points, write it down.
If you’ve ever done any affirmations
work, it is like old school detentions where you must write on the blackboard
something like, “I will listen in class and not chew gum, throw spit balls and
pull pigtails.” Affirmations are “positive” and the repetition is to imprint ideas in
our memory and modify behavior. Why is it so hard to remember these things, when an advertising jingle
or pop song can run in the head for hours?
Yes, I did write out all the
alphabetic combinations for – “han.” A few are surnames. “Truth” is another part of the spiritual
landscape for me, in actuality, Naked Mountain near Markam, Virginia. Ok, on to week 21.
NNC
