Greetings All –
HUMANITY IS GOVERNED BY WAVES OF FEAR that draw
people here and there, waves of fear that dominate their actions, their thinking,
their conclusions, their beliefs and their assumptions. Do not follow the waves
of fear that move across the world. Instead, remain steadfast and still in
Knowledge. Allow yourself to observe the world from this point of stillness and
certainty. Do not be swayed by the waves of fear. In this way, you will be able
to contribute to the world and not be
its victim only. You are here to give, not to judge, and in stillness you are
without judgment upon the world. Recognize, then, the waves of fear, but do not
let them touch you, for in Knowledge they cannot touch you because Knowledge is
beyond all fear.
REPEAT YOUR IDEA FOR THE DAY UPON THE HOUR, and
consider it in light of all that you experience today. In your two longer
practice periods, apply your mind actively in attempting to understand today’s lesson.
Again, this is a form of mental application. We shall not practice stillness
and mental silence today but mental application so that you may learn to think
constructively. For when your mind is not still, it should be thinking
constructively. It should be investigating. Do not rely upon early conclusions.
Do not rely upon self-comforting ideas. Allow yourself to be vulnerable today,
for you are only vulnerable to Knowledge. Yet, Knowledge will shield you from
all things of harm within this world and will provide a comfort and a stability
that the world can never change. Learn of this today so that you may be a source
of Knowledge within the world so that your Source may express itself through
you.
PRACTICE 152: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly
practice.
Note: “You
are here to give, not to judge, and in stillness you are without judgment upon
the world. Recognize, then, the waves of fear, but do not let them touch you,
for in Knowledge they cannot touch you because Knowledge is beyond all fear.”
From the Journal:
6:30
A.M. I will not use fear to support my judgments.
S2K
practice – to actively consider this. This, it says will have me learn about
wisdom and ignorance. In spite of ACIM and my learning of ego/fear – in
practice I am not w/o it. I get attacked, my life is attacked, and I’m fearful.
My relationships are stressed. People, the kids make mistakes and are slow to
learn. Fear confuses me and robs energy. I often do not know how to act and
feel isolated. …
What
is the world and where do I fit? I am not alone in spirit, yet I am alone in
this body. Can I become: have I been self-aware enough to
know/feel/sense/experience my connection.
Sense yes. I observe the world. I have built a
role for myself within it. Sometime I’m satisfied, but often not. Relationships
are getting more challenging and easier all at once – we judge not.
What
must I do to feel at home in the world? Simply accept the world, release judgments
of yourself. It is an amusement park – you’ve signed up for a ride – for the
experience.
Who
or what conspires to give the
experience?
- I
truly seek to Know God
- be
still and KNOW –
8:17
A.M. I know S2K is for me to learn to have happiness on earth so that I might
move my soul to a level wher there is no fatigue.
6:45
p.m. This day has been productive. The MIF meeting went well. The personnel
committee met and authorized me to move forward with part time help to get us
caught up. COG and ICPRB folks were very helpful. I can continue “personnel”
recovery – but it has been two years plus of hell! Lesson burned.
6:55
p.m. Practice #2 “I will not use fear to support my judgments.”
It’s
good that this exercise call for active thought. When the Personnel Committee
met unexpectedly today – my first reaction was fear – that they were going to
fire me or otherwise make my life more miserable - … When called in I was
surprised that they authorized me to get part time help and move to a finance
officer position. I said thank you.
My
judgment was that the pers group was not working in my best interest – and fear
– past experience/pain seemed to feed that.
I
read GCW-I on happiness – rather finished it this a.m. – the base line sense
being sought is happiness in the world – acceptance of pain – is that not
denial?
I
judge myself – and fear that I’m right. I resist being judgmental of others –
Lloyd for example, but fear that Sarah will ultimately be hurt. If I accept
hurt as normal/do I support/tolerate abuse? Am I fearful to take action because
I may be attacked?
I’m
feeling judgmental to Sarah’s counselor Sue ---- Who started Sarah off on her
birth-mother search, creating havoc for M.E. & Sarah – ultimately leading
to the current disappointment. I would like to see this lead to success and
self –supporting growth in Sarah. I hold back. Am I foolish?
I
trust in process that leads to discernment. That is what planning/facilitating
has taught me.
Since
ACIM I’ve worked on discernment rather than judgment. Thus this Step is not
totally new territory.
The
Step says: “… only from a place of self-love can you offer correction to
yourself and to others.”
I
understand the importance of self-love, but am not there totally. I may judge
myself – I do judge myself as having failed. How can I self-change better?
A wordy day. Of course it was a thinking exercise,
but much was going on. Your life is probably as complicated, but with other
characters. In reading this entry I was quite amazed to find this particular
question: “What must I do to feel at home in the world?” Much later I’ll
explain why. If you’ve had that question too, then do stick with the Steps
through Step 365.
NNC
