Greetings All –
YOUR LIFE IS NECESSARY. It is not a biological
accident. It is not a mere chance circumstance that you arrived in this world. Your
life is necessary. If you could but recall what you went through to come into
this world and the preparation that was required—both within this world and
beyond—for you to emerge here, then you would realize the importance of your
being here and the importance of the Knowledge that you carry within you. Your
life is necessary. There is no form of conceit here. It is simply a recognition
of truth. In your evaluation of yourself, your life is either pathetic or grandiose.
Yet, the necessity of your life has nothing to do with your evaluations, though
your evaluations can bring you closer to or take you farther from this one true
recognition.
YOUR LIFE IS NECESSARY. Understand this and it will
banish your sense of self-judgment and condemnation. Understand this and it
will bring humility into your self-grandiose ideas. Understand this and your plans
may then in time be adjusted to Knowledge itself, for your life is necessary.
REPEAT THIS STATEMENT UPON THE HOUR and consider it
regardless of your emotions, your circumstances and whatever thoughts are
prevailing in your mind, for Knowledge is greater than thoughts and is meant to
govern thoughts. In your two meditation practices, allow the word RAHN to take
you deep into practice. Feel the necessity of your own life—its value and its
importance. This is something that you can experience directly. It does not
require your evaluation. It does not require that you consider yourself to be
greater than others. It is merely a profound experience of reality, for your
life is necessary. It is necessary for you. It is necessary for your world. It
is necessary for life itself.
PRACTICE 174: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly
practice.
From the Journal:
6:20
A.M. January 6, 2000 – The great depression is not repeatable because the world
has learned – the banks have learned how to respond. The stock market remains volatile
– When is it time to get in? Not now –
Began
with some Tai Chi. Need to wake up before meditation.
→ Localities have
governance, regions have administration.
9:45
p.m. Today I did what was necessary through 8 p.m. It wasn’t all done. I couldn’t
do anymore. I came home, went out to buy food – deciding to have a Wild Turkey
and popcorn for dinner and watch TV comedies.
12:23
A.M. Friday, January 7, 2000
I’ve
been angry this evening. I did the necessary all day – I’ve done it for years,
for decades – there is no joy in it -
hardly life. No effort tonight – mindless joy. I’ll sleep, make up – and
do the next practice. It makes no sense.
12:50
A.M. Still stupid after all these years. I can’t go back to Jo Evans giving me
a three finger Wild Turkey on the rocks and feeling good.
→
Maybe GCW isn’t for me?
Oops, “back in the soup.” That is a phrase The
Teachers use which captures how it is for a student to be a devoted one moment,
then thrown off course by something in the world. This day, I was thrown off. I
know that is the case in other days ahead, though I’m only looking at the
journal one day at a time. So, you may be experiencing this too – and that is
normal. If you are not – well, good for you. Let’s keep moving forward.
NNC
