Greetings All –
WHAT YOU ARE REALLY ASKING FOR is far greater than
what you have entertained before. Though your questions may have arisen out of
immediate circumstances, you are asking for far more than immediate resolution
to immediate things. Immediate resolution will be given, but from a Greater Source.
It is this Greater Source that you are seeking, for you are seeking to realize
your nature here, and you are seeking to find the preparation that will enable
you to contribute your gifts so that your work in the world may be complete. Therefore,
understand that you are here to serve. You are here to give. And in so doing,
you will find your fulfillment. This will produce happiness for you.
IN YOUR TWO LONGER PRACTICE PERIODS TODAY, once
again enter into stillness and silence, keeping in mind that stillness
cultivates the mind to receive. In stillness you find that things are known
already that you have neglected thus far. From these practice periods your mind
will become more refined and have greater depth, greater concentration and a
greater focus in all aspects of your life.
WHAT YOU ARE SEEKING TODAY is something greater
than you have considered before. You are seeking to know the meaning of your Knowledge
through its demonstration.
PRACTICE 184: Two 30-minute practice periods.
Yesterday: Step
183 - I seek experience not answers.
From the Journal:
8:25
A.M. Sunday, Jan 16 – up – yet sleepy – a deep night. This world is where I am.
It is where my consciousness is focused in manifestation. It is not a dream, it
is not entirely an illusion, it is an aspect of the creation. Maintaining
contact – feedback with the Creator is important to make the experience worthy
of the energy utilized.
GCWK
is a method of increasing the level of connection so that one’s role in the
manifestation can be more effective. The Spiritual Efficiency Act (SEA) or
something like that.
GCWK
is technique for connection. It does not tell me what to do. It is affirming
the connection I already have built, stripping some of the metaphysics which
cloud the process.
I’m
anxious to get on to part two. In the pillars work I see where I’ve let myself
become depressed bout the work of life and let it slide. This occurs/has occurred
when relationships have gone south or were never adequately established. It has
also occurred when my expectations were too high and I’ve been too focused on
my work. ACIM and all my readings contribute, but only GCWK gives a path w/o
being overly prescriptive.
I am
responsible and I have help. I am not alone. I’ve felt alone and reached out to
God, to Christ and have gotten what I need. All life is risk management I’ve
intuited. I’ve lived very risky life as
PDC director. Very few can appreciate it – but this has been and will continue
to be an area where I seek to contribute.
Achieving
balance is the challenge now – jettisoning undoable ideas – parking them where
they are available, but not taking daily energy. Building staff capability –
that makes me cry … for I’ve made mistakes of a nature that I don’t understand.
Too much faith in people?
LTWOK
p. 38 – The promise “…you will be able to do what you know.”
…
12:47
p.m. At the trail – in my car. I’ll eat lunch, meditate, then hike. This book
shall be completed – then another will begin. I’m not quite awake – don’t know
why.
1:15
p.m. What do I need; what do I know? I need the PDC job more than the money
because it is a platform for learning and teaching. I must understand why it is
working here better than other areas, to understand – abstrackt knowledge for
theory in order to promote. I need money for my children and to support my
travels. I’ll need money to spread the word and to support GCWK.
1:22
p.m. I’m also lately in a zombie sense. Overdue for practice #1 today. I’ve all
the pieces – just need to get the entrainment I need to be the leader who is
facilitator.
How
can people know what needs to be done when they don’t have a greater view. It’s
that things don’t feel right.
[New
journal composition book]
2:32
p.m. Jan 16, 2000 – Where am I? I am sitting above Su-Ne. It is a windy cool
January day. I’ve done practice 183 – “I seek experience not answers.” This is
the area of my first HI [Holy Instant] – that is to me the connectin with
Knowledge. I know work in the field of cooperation is important. It is an area
where I can continue to contribute. We humans must better manage our
settlements. There’s been waste on a large scale. Still there is a great
resilience. More souls are coming – we must make sure they will have lunch. We
need to utilize better the value that has been created. S2K often seems harsh –
a Puritan ethic of sorts. The detail of my life – OK – move to work.
I
lay curled up on the rock. The wind blows. I am still. People pass on the path.
I hear voices – see them through the grey winter trunks of trees on the path
across the stream. The sun sparkles – edging lower in the sky. Clouds pushed by
the wind speed across the blue, blue sky. Airplanes overhead – Dulles airport
is near – and car and truck motors from the highways.
I am
content here in the winter woods. I’d be ok as a tree, a rock, a leaf. This is
pure nature. Lean and bare for winter. I could sleep here forever if that were my
life form’s process. I could be that. I read once of a lone alien who had been
separated from his family after a crash. For several hundred years he lived on
a rock among the moss before venturing on to another venue.
I
have office work – PDC work to do. That is important. In the funky years I lost
momentum. I need to consolidate around the do-able. I know that to be water,
transportation, dates, GIS and mapping and facilitation of discussion about our
continued settlement of this earth.
3:06
p.m. And another experience of being present with knowledge ends so that I
might continue about the Creator’s work. Open eyed pure being with no agenda,
no need, no fear, no action, - all sense -
pure and still. The woods from where I looked because a still life so I
understand what a “still life” portrait is – stopping the world – showing Knowledge.
Continuous stillness is not the goal – for I am here to work – but the
connection affirms – and is an unbelievable joy.
Amen & Amen
T-om at Su-Ne
3:40
p.m. At the office – I need to integrate the experience I am having with Knowledge
so I can bring it more into the world. As I walked out of the woods I felt a
great responsibility. In my daily work I am faced with a tremendous backlog of
work.
I
need a flushing out and simplifying – somehow. I have a foundation. I must
continue to make progress.
…
4:42
p.m. Vision is so easy – work is so
hard. Is that my lesson? People want to do their part to the exclusion of
others – and be off to be free. I don’t have that luxury.
…
Another day of long journal entries. I include most
of it as an example of how I am changing as a consequence of applying the
lessons of Steps and Knowledge in my life. Henry David Thoreau was and is one
of my favorite writers. When I read him in my college sophomore American Literature
classes, I recognized someone who thought like me. He was a transcendentalist
and I felt I was as well. I fell into that sense in the woods that day and very
often do that to this day.
Also note I’m already thinking about financial
support for GCWOK. Your pace may be different, but that is likely to be true of
any student who undertakes the Steps to Knowledge.
NNC
P.S. At Step 184, we are into Part Two of Steps, so
if you’ve found this and find some appeal in this or other Steps, you should
really go to the beginning blog post. From here you learn about Steps to Knowledge and
can begin it on the day that makes sense and then progress as needed.
Often it takes 18 months to get through the Steps
once. For this blog, the pace is one-a-day, but it really makes no difference
how fast you do it, only that you begin, persist and repeat. Posts here provide
a trail that may let you have a virtual companion when and if you want one. One
may have to study alone, as I did in the beginning. There are other Steps
students blogging their experience and you might find a person more like you as
a companion, or use a number of such Steps journeys. There are options as well
through the Free School of the New Message.