Greetings All –
Step 338 - Today I will be attentive. (MP3) [Open in Drive or copy to your Drive – Download
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| Today I will be attentive. Step 338 |
BE ATTENTIVE TODAY so that you may see what is
occurring around you. Be attentive today so that you may experience yourself in
the world. Be attentive today so that you may experience that the fire of
Knowledge is burning within you. Be attentive today so that you may experience
that the presence of your Teachers is with you. Be attentive today so that you
may see that the fire of Knowledge is burning within the world and that the
presence of your Teachers is present in the world as well. These things will
naturally come to you as you are attentive, for without condemnation you will
see what is actually occurring. This will confirm your spiritual nature and
purpose in the world. This will confirm your true identity and give meaning to your
individual life.
BE ATTENTIVE UPON THE HOUR TODAY and have
confidence that being attentive will yield its own true results for you. Without
judgment and evaluation, you will see through all fearful appearances that the
world may present to you. You will see through all fearful appearances that
your imagination may present to you, for all fearful appearances are born of
and substantiated by imagination. In being attentive to the world, you
recognize the world’s confusion and its need for Knowledge. This will confirm
your own confusion and need for Knowledge and will make you happy that you are
now preparing to receive Knowledge itself.
IN YOUR DEEPER MEDITATION PRACTICES BE ATTENTIVE,
be present and give yourself in stillness within the sanctuary of Knowledge. You
need only be attentive. Judgment is not necessary. Be attentive and you will
penetrate the false and you will receive the true. For true attention will
always give you that which is true, and false attention will always give you
that which is false.
TODAY YOU STRENGTHEN THIS FACULTY OF MIND, this
ability to be attentive. You strengthen this for yourself and for the world,
which needs to be recognized. For the world needs to be loved, and love only comes
through true recognition.
PRACTICE 338: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly
practice.
Yesterday: Step
337 - Alone I can do nothing.
Though this is a repeat Step, also Step 45 and Step
249, we are not reminded of the repetition, but it feels new. Only as I began
to type this did I check if it was a repeat. The phrase is the same, but given
our experience through the prior 336 Steps, it hits differently.
In response to the first paragraph, I wrote: “I’m already
included.” For me, this was an
important revelation. You may have already have had yours, or not – there is no
schedule.
The journal had a good bit of activity. You might
get something out of it; or not.
6:17
a.m. Sunday, June 18, 2000 – up early because of the work I need to do at the
office. I'm angry, but more determined that the programs not fail.
It
had been my goal to leave @ 55. If things were going well, I probably wouldn't
have. I've gone through much the last 3 years – learned much? – Still deep into
learning.
The
learning org – the learners will teach. Events will teach.
S2K
– My long Practice was not as long as I wanted –
>
Theory of Regional Relativity
6:40
a.m. Step 337 – Alone I can do nothing.
10:29
a.m. Changed day. Was going to work to finish audit first. ---
So –
mow/watch race/iron shirts – do the day differently – trying to understand –
slow – slow learner and non-game player. –
So
strange – the S2K message is we are not alone – no matter how we/I feel – In my
regional cooperation seeking – the whole world has gone before – all is
connected for the present – synergy
[7/2/2000
– What is the value of synergy?]
No
synergy – no world –
Other
– expanded networks –
2:37
p.m. At work – not feeling good about my life. I know what I want – but do not
know how to get there.
I'm
spending Father's Day alone so I can be with my friends.
It
does not seem possible to change the work situation w/o loss of funds – so I'll
keep them afloat – at a high personal clause.
–
The track I've been on for the past ten years has been instructive, but not
fun. S2K says we’re here to work, but that working with knowledge will get to
joy & happiness. I take that on faith. [I want more joy & happiness.
7/2/2000]
3:35
p.m. At work – into the flow of the problem – the paper trail for MIF [Minimum
Instream Flow – North Fork Shenandoah River] – a monumental task –
10:47
p.m. Alone I can do nothing. Worked until 8:30 – and still don't have it all
done for the audit –
Am
drinking Tequiza – which I like and reading Jean Hudon's email letter about
"depression." One woman said it is "oppression" – greater
forces – not depression.
Palden
Jenkins – has written – talking about the need for time.
That
launched a thought in me – about the end of time – our return – all of us to
God – the initial scattering of Souls & matter –
We
need time, so everything doesn't happen at once…
→ We were flung
to the edge of the universe by our own interest in manifestation –
→ here it is – us
working back to God –
–
Palden says "… a point where we accept that what we want and what we get
are different things. The grating between the two is a Key element of Earth –
planetary existence, and that applies to rich & poor alike. We came here
seeking this pain! …"
This day I went deep and far out, trying to put the
pieces together. Some of it holds up, and some of it is future information.
Your own results will determine if you go on. As for me, I say let us continue.
NNC
Journal second time x2
Step 337. This is for those who have completed
Steps once. Doing Steps with only the texts, messages and your life experience,
including what you may have studied and practiced is your journey. I’m showing
Step comments after the Step, so as not to influence you in advance. It is a
wilderness trek to be left to your own wits, but then you can also listen more
closely for guides, angels and teachers, always first saying: “I surround and
protect myself with the Love and the Grace of God.” Thankfully, I was taught
this practice in 1989.
P.S. If you’ve some interest due to this or other
Steps, you should go to the beginning blog post. From here you will learn about Steps to Knowledge
and can begin it on the day that makes sense; then progress as needed. You can
use the posts on this blog as a companion if it helps. They will remain in
order in the archives - one post per Step.
Often it takes 18 months to get through the Steps
once. For this blog, the pace is one-a-day, but it really makes no difference
how fast you do it, only that you begin, persist and repeat. Posts here provide
a trail that may let you have a virtual companion when and if you want one. One
may have to study alone, as I did in the beginning. There are other Steps
students blogging their experience and you might find a person more like you as
a companion, or use a number of such Steps journeys. There are options as well
through the Free School of the New Message.
