Greetings All –
Step 356 - I will find my
Self today. (MP3) [Open in Drive or copy to
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| I will find my Self today. Step 356 |
YOUR SELF IS GREATER THAN YOUR CURRENT CAPACITY to experience
it. Yet, within your current capacity you can find your Self and experience it.
Remember that this is your great desire. Remember this upon the hour. Remember that
you want to find your Self, for without your Self you are lost in your own
thinking and in the erratic thinking of the world. Without your Self, you will feel
as temporary and as changeable as the world. Without your Self, you will feel
as threatened and as threatening as the world. Therefore, your true desire is
to reclaim your Self and with your Self all things that are inherent within
your Self that are born of your one True Source, that are expressed through
your Knowledge and that live within your Ancient Home.
TODAY IN YOUR DEEPER PRACTICE PERIODS, come again
to Knowledge. Come to give yourself. Come to worship. Come in devotion and
reverence so that you may increase your capacity to experience yourself, both
within your meditation practice time and within your time in the world. You
have come into the world to reclaim your Knowledge and to allow your Knowledge
to express itself. You will then express your Self, for you are in the world to
express your Self.
PRACTICE 356: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly
practice.
Yesterday: Step
355 - I can be at peace in the world.
At this point, it seems we get a break. One need
only read this Step three times. Surprise; yet another big Step. The book page
looks like this:
In the margin at the top: “Might I have
meaningful activity”. At the
bottom, the times I read it first go-round on the left, with following ones
dated. Note that by 2/9/06 “I do experience peace in this world”. I’m certain that I reached some measure of peace
before 2006, but this is the first place it is written down.
The journal is short and questioning:
7:58
a.m. Thursday, July 6, 2000 – S2K says we can experience stillness and work at
the same time. Is work the problem for me? The work that I feel needs to be
done is not funded, so I've been doing it on my own. It is an obscure view. I'm
along with it – it seems. All relationships seem to be in trouble. I have no
answers. I don't even have questions. I've no idea how to get to peace from
here for David, Jamie, Lane, Emily, Sarah, Mary Ellen, Cindy, me – there should
be a giant circuit breaker that could be pulled and it would stop everything –
then a reset button – we are in our deep, individual holes – and the world
moves along merrily.
Choose
life – to just live – not the zombie peace – but a real peace of a horizon that
leads somewhere… Where are we going in this future? Technology pushes &
pulls.
11
p.m. Today – Step 355 – "I can be at peace in the world." This
certainly is my goal. I experience it when in the woods – alone – sometimes
with Cindy. In 10 days – the beginning student will have made the 1st run on
the Steps. I look forward to the 1st completion of the Steps.
We are all looking towards completion of this round
of Steps. It is a busy time of the year to be ending on, but these are also the
Holy Days, so what better time?
We will continue. Not keeping the daily pace is not
a problem. Take whatever time it requires. In case there are some who would
like to begin or do Steps another time, please point out to them that “Steps to
Knowledge” begins again on January 1, 2016 for first-timers and all other
students who want to do Steps again or complete what was started years ago.
Because the biggest Steps come at the end, the Holy
Days season may not give one the necessary time. In 2016 the Blog archives will
be improved so that people can begin when they are ready and move at their own
pace. It will avoid the lock step with the calendar. The goal here is to give
students options. They will not eliminate the need for discipline, but increase
the means for adaptation.
Let us continue.
NNC
Journal second time x2
Step 355. This is for those who have completed
Steps once. Doing Steps with only the texts, messages and your life experience,
including what you may have studied and practiced is your journey. I’m showing
Step comments after the Step, so as not to influence you in advance. It is a wilderness
trek to be left to your own wits, but then you can also listen more closely for
guides, angels and teachers, always first saying: “I surround and protect
myself with the Love and the Grace of God.” Thankfully, I was taught this
practice in 1989.
P.S. If you’ve some interest due to this or other
Steps, you should go to the beginning blog post. From here you will learn about Steps to Knowledge
and can begin it on the day that makes sense; then progress as needed. You can
use the posts on this blog as a companion if it helps. They will remain in
order in the archives - one post per Step.
Often it takes 18 months to get through the Steps
once. For this blog, the pace is one-a-day, but it really makes no difference
how fast you do it, only that you begin, persist and repeat. Posts here provide
a trail that may let you have a virtual companion when and if you want one. One
may have to study alone, as I did in the beginning. There are other Steps
students blogging their experience and you might find a person more like you as
a companion, or use a number of such Steps journeys. There are options as well
through the Free School of the New Message.
