Greetings All –
WHY ENGAGE IN ADDITIONAL SPECULATION? Why project further
blame or judgment? Why make your life more complex and more frustrating when
all things become clear with Knowledge? Why make your mind more complex? Why attribute more and more qualities
to yourself? Why invent new levels of thinking and being when with Knowledge
all things become clear? Why project more and more distinctions upon the world?
Why make the world seem so hopelessly complex and meaningless when with Knowledge
all things become clear?
YOU HAVE ONLY TO LEARN TO BE WITH KNOWLEDGE to see
what Knowledge sees, to do what Knowledge does and to have the peace of Knowledge,
the grace of Knowledge, the inclusion of Knowledge, the relationships of Knowledge and all that Knowledge
contains, which the world cannot possibly duplicate.
IN YOUR TWO DEEPER PRACTICES return to being with
Knowledge, in humility and simplicity, in stillness and in silence. Breathe Knowledge
in. Allow Knowledge to enter and fill your body. Allow yourself to be immersed
in Knowledge and all things will become clear, for with Knowledge all things
become clear and all questions
disappear.
PRACTICE 263: Two 30-minute practice periods.
This is not an easy Step. Is it a shattering as
depicted here?
In the journal I was covering many bases this day,
but do spend time on the Step.
6:40
a.m. Tuesday, April 4, 2000
They
don't have the money to do what they want to do. As an entrepreneurial local
government – I've gotten as far as I can.
People
must learn to maintain their regional/local assets first – and to maintain
that. Local assets become regional in support of the fabric. The built
environment is an overlay.
Step
262 – "How can I judge myself when I do not know who I am."
oops
– I'm a soul in the body and this is strange.
It
is a time and materials universe?
7:41
a.m. Practice #1 continued. What is my true ambition? To bring Knowledge into
the world. Is that really purpose? I'm not very good at it. My foundation in
the world for being a Knowledge operative appears weak. Is this because I do
not know fully yet who I am? That would be an emotional save. It is the feeling
of being a
stranger in a strange land.
8:30
p.m. Practice #2 –
12:11
a.m. April 5, 2000 "How can I judge myself when I do not know who I
am." The easiest and truest answer must be that I cannot judge myself nor
can anyone else. Just like ACIM – no judgment – only discernment – but how do
we know we are discerning in a useful way? I sent out a message for help to Ellen
and Joyce. I'm deep in confusion from the lessons, but understand that is the
path.
Sarah
was angry at 9 p.m. because Cindy took her room and her memories. We got
outside and in the car for a drive – first to truth, then to the Skyline Drive
because she wouldn't let go. The truth was she didn't like Cindy and was mad at
me for marrying Cindy – just like most step-parents.
I
told her I couldn't keep Cindy from the room, but also - no one could take her
memories. We headed up the Skyline Drive. I said I wouldn't turn around until
she dealt with her anger.
Anger
is true feeling – I said (S2K) and it has to be dealt with. Since she was
really mad at me, I said to drop the middleman – Cindy – and complain to me
directly –
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Make note of the call: “I sent out a message for help to Ellen and Joyce.
I'm deep in confusion from the lessons, but understand that is the path.” The people
of the Society in Boulder are important resources. You can do this alone, but
know there are others who have been on this journey much longer and have had an
experience or two hundred. Let us continue.
NNC
P.S. At Step 263, we are into Part Two of Steps, so
if you’ve found this and find some appeal in this or other Steps, you should
really go to the beginning blog post. From here you learn about Steps to Knowledge and
can begin it on the day that makes sense and then progress as needed. You can
use the posts on this blog as a companion if it helps. They will remain in
order in the archives - one per Step.
Often it takes 18 months to get through the Steps
once. For this blog, the pace is one-a-day, but it really makes no difference
how fast you do it, only that you begin, persist and repeat. Posts here provide
a trail that may let you have a virtual companion when and if you want one. One
may have to study alone, as I did in the beginning. There are other Steps
students blogging their experience and you might find a person more like you as
a companion, or use a number of such Steps journeys. There are options as well
through the Free School of the New Message.
