Step 333 - There is a presence with me. I can feel it. (MP3) Entry for Step 332 - I am only beginning to comprehend the meaning of Knowledge in my life.

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Step 333 - There is a presence with me. I can feel it. (MP3) [Open in Drive or copy to your Drive – Download folder or play from Drive – Step PDF also.]

There is a presence with me. I can feel it. Step 333

FEEL THE PRESENCE OF YOUR TEACHERS TODAY who abide with you and oversee your preparation as a student of Knowledge. Feel their presence today and you will feel your own presence, for you are joined together in this presence that you feel. Remember that you are not alone, and you will not become isolated in your own thoughts. You will not become isolated in your own fearful considerations.

UPON THE HOUR EXPERIENCE THIS PRESENCE, for this presence is with you upon the hour. Feel this presence no matter where you are today, whether you are at work or at home, whether you are alone or with another, for this presence is with you wherever you go.

IN YOUR TWO DEEP MEDITATION PRACTICES allow yourself to experience the presence of love, which is the presence of Knowledge, which is the presence of Wisdom, which is the presence of certainty, which is the source of your purpose, meaning and direction in the world and which contains for you your calling in the world. Come into the proximity and into the experience of this presence in your deeper meditations. Do not neglect this, for here you will experience self-love, self-worth and true inclusion in life. Take this presence with you today and receive this presence in your deeper meditations, and you will know that the presence is with you every day.

PRACTICE 333: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly practice.

Yesterday:  Step 332 - I am only beginning to comprehend the meaning of Knowledge in my life.

From the Journal:

12:30 a.m. June 13, 2000 – Tuesday – My brain gets more insane – I approach Knowledge, then my life runs away.

I can create value. I have used the system to do so – why isn't that seen & supported?

7 a.m. On the back porch – I'm angry – angry because of fear – I fear I erred, missed many opportunities and have no good options.

Is this mid-life crisis – I'm not going to live with comfort?

My ideas still grow – even though I'm tired and negative.

People are depending upon me for a lot. Can't let them down.

I feel my life is over – dead ended – and Step 332 says – "I am only beginning to comprehend the meaning of Knowledge in my life."
9:03 a.m. At work. Lots to do – my passion is coordination across boundaries. Really – the boundaries don't exist – but they've been created.

Perhaps a quadrant analysis would work.

7:05 p.m. Back porch – Train on the nearby track – flying through. I could to be closer – glad that house fell through.

Had lunch with Bill L… today. Hadn't seen him for two years. Told him of my fate at PDC and my goals. He was supportive – a nice response. I'll need to meet with him again.
– I need to create my next business using what I've learned. It is a greater challenge than I imagined. It often takes all my energy just to get through the day – little left when I get home.
– so here I am – $$ limbo – what do I do?

First I want to Know my errors so I don't make them again. I'm not here to save the world. I shouldn't take on that cross.

9 p.m. On the orphan path. I finished my second Practice? When did I do the first? "I'm only beginning to comprehend the meaning of Knowledge in my life."

The quadrant book is interesting – makes me feel disappointed – yet I know why I have the result I have and which errors put me off. I also know that I didn't know – and fear kept me from following intuition. I need to Know the Knowledge part of the quadrant…for my part.

my skill – Adding value with geography? – What is my product? What will a customer buy?

I wonder if I’m having a mid-life crisis; my life errors have led me to a – dead end, yet Step 332 says: "I am only beginning to comprehend the meaning of Knowledge in my life."

At age 53, “only beginning;” is this possible? Though I’m not fully aware of how I am being assisted at this time, the Steps are saving my life and have been doing so throughout this period. I continued and suggest you do the same. Therefore, let us continue.


Journal second time x2 Step 332.  This is for those who have completed Steps once. Doing Steps with only the texts, messages and your life experience, including what you may have studied and practiced is your journey. I’m showing Step comments after the Step, so as not to influence you in advance. It is a wilderness trek to be left to your own wits, but then you can also listen more closely for guides, angels and teachers, always first saying: “I surround and protect myself with the Love and the Grace of God.” Thankfully, I was taught this practice in 1989.

P.S. If you’ve some interest due to this or other Steps, you should go to the beginning blog post. From here you will learn about Steps to Knowledge and can begin it on the day that makes sense; then progress as needed. You can use the posts on this blog as a companion if it helps. They will remain in order in the archives - one post per Step.

Often it takes 18 months to get through the Steps once. For this blog, the pace is one-a-day, but it really makes no difference how fast you do it, only that you begin, persist and repeat. Posts here provide a trail that may let you have a virtual companion when and if you want one. One may have to study alone, as I did in the beginning. There are other Steps students blogging their experience and you might find a person more like you as a companion, or use a number of such Steps journeys. There are options as well through the Free School of the New Message.