Step 137 - I will accept the mystery of my life. (MP3) Entry for Step 136 - My purpose is to reclaim my Knowledge and to allow it to express itself in the world.

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Step 137 - I will accept the mystery of my life. (MP3) [Open in Drive or copy to your Drive – Download folder or play from Drive – Step PDF also.]
“I will accept the mystery of my life.” Step 137

YOUR LIFE IS A MYSTERY. Your origin, your purpose here and your destination when you leave are very mysterious. They can only be experienced to be comprehended. How can you, at this given moment, understand the mystery of your life? You would have to be at the end of your life to understand what has transpired thus far, and you are not at the end of your life in the world. You would have to see the world from your Ancient Home to understand the true meaning of the world. You are in the world now, so you must be present to the world. Yet, this mystery can be experienced and must be experienced. You cannot understand it at this moment, but in this moment you can experience it fully. Within this experience, it will yield to you all of the things that you now need to take the vital step that is waiting for you to take.

THEREFORE, DO NOT BURDEN YOUR MIND with the requirement of understanding, for you will seek the impossible and will only confuse yourself and add to the burden of your thinking. Rather, give yourself to experience the mystery of your life with wonder and appreciation that the world is far greater than what your senses have reported thus far and that your life is far greater than what your judgments have determined.

REPEAT THIS IDEA UPON THE HOUR and practice your RAHN meditation twice today with great depth and sincerity. Allow your practice today to reaffirm your commitment to Knowledge, for you need only follow the steps as they are given.

PRACTICE 137: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly practice.

A good deal of information is presented in this Step, bringing together threads already introduced. The first time one can mostly just read the words. Great understanding may be had though, with greater in the future.

Picture:  This is St. Paul's Chapel at Broadway and Fulton Street, New York City. It was founded in 1766 as a chapel-of-ease according to the website. One might visit historic churches, mosques, temples or synagogues simply as a tourist, but other connections may be experienced.

From the journal:

6:21 A.M. Tuesday, Nov 30, 1999

7:30 A.M. S2K 136 – Presents a fearful scenario. It affirms “My purpose is to reclaim my Knowledge and to allow it to express itself in the world.” 136  My fear is that my Knowledge is an Atomic Bomb that would destroy me – on one hand, or more likely, a flickering match that would embarrass me. The word repetition of RAHN also makes me uneasy. This thinking further isolates me by thought – and reduces my desire for my current work. …

10 p.m. A wasted evening; Food, Food, Food. No RAHN meditation. Losing it? I do not know.

10:25 p.m. What has meaning – it all falls away…am I even here?

Having a rough day; you might have those too. Still, I kept on. You should too.
Journal second time x2 Step 136.  This is for those who have completed Steps once. Doing Steps with only the texts, messages and your life experience, including what you may have studied and practiced is your journey. I’m showing Step comments after the Step, so as not to influence you in advance. It is a wilderness trek to be left to your own wits, but then you can also listen more closely for guides, angels and teachers, always first saying: “I surround and protect myself with the Love and the Grace of God.” Thankfully, I was taught this practice in 1989.

P.S. If you’ve some interest due to this or other Steps, you should go to the beginning blog post. From here you will learn about Steps to Knowledge and can begin it on the day that makes sense; then progress as needed. You can use the posts on this blog as a companion if it helps. They will remain in order in the archives - one post per Step.

Often it takes 18 months to get through the Steps once. For this blog, the pace is one-a-day, but it really makes no difference how fast you do it, only that you begin, persist and repeat. Posts here provide a trail that may let you have a virtual companion when and if you want one. One may have to study alone, as I did in the beginning. There are other Steps students blogging their experience and you might find a person more like you as a companion, or use a number of such Steps journeys. There are options as well through the Free School of the New Message.