Step 292 - How can I be angry with the world when it only serves me. (MP3) Entry for Step 291 - I am grateful to my brothers and my sisters who err against me.

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Step 292 - How can I be angry with the world when it only serves me. (MP3)  [Open in Drive or copy to your Drive – Download folder or play from Drive – Step PDF also.]

How can I be angry with the world when it only serves me. Step 292

HOW CAN YOU BE ANGRY WHEN THE WORLD SERVES YOU? When you recognize how much the world is serving you, which can only be recognized in the context of Knowledge, you will then end all of your hatred towards the world, all of your condemnation of the world and all of your resistance to the world. This will confirm your true destiny, your true origin and your true purpose for being in the world.

YOU HAVE COME INTO THE WORLD TO LEARN AND TO UNLEARN. You have come into the world to recognize what is real and what is not. You have come into the world to be a contributor to the world, a contributor who has been sent from beyond the world to serve here. This is the real nature of your presence here, and though it may seem to conflict with your evaluation of yourself, it is true nonetheless and will be true regardless of your point of view, regardless of your own ideals and beliefs and regardless of whatever pursuits you may set for yourself. The truth awaits you and waits for you to be ready to value it.

UPON THE HOUR REMEMBER TODAY’S IDEA and see its application everywhere as you look about at the world. In your two deeper practices once again bring to mind every person that you feel has erred against you, and once again attempt to understand their contribution to you in bringing you to Knowledge, in teaching you to value Knowledge and in teaching you to realize that there is no hope beyond Knowledge. There is no hope without Knowledge. Today’s idea will engender love and gratitude towards the world and will strengthen this point of view, which will be necessary for you to have to look upon the world with certainty, love and Knowledge.

PRACTICE 292: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly practice.

Another contemplative day in the journal.

6:40 a.m. Wednesday, May 3, 2000 – I was awake at 5 a.m., but slow to rise – 6:30 – probably avoiding S2K 291 – "I am grateful to my brothers and my sisters who err against me."

In Practices #1 & #2 I am to think of people who have erred against me – and thus brought me to Knowledge. Though true – it is painful and the errs continue at work – in fact – I can't see an end to them. I'm slowly moving to get some sense from what I do – regional intelligence – but still seek external support for those views.

There is the world and me in the world. I've always been a seeker, but not a finder. If S2K is in other religious practices, I couldn't find it.

Errors by parents/the world in youth/H.S. – led me to understand the "fear enforced morality" and I concluded too that we were seeking to put back together the spilled files of the universe – a crude version of reclaiming Knowledge (perhaps) (my ego would like to think it has always been right).

Getting a sense of self was difficult. At 17 I wanted life to and – but it did not.

I didn't fit well into the Navy until I read "As a Man Thinketh," which Mom had sent. Once I stopped fighting the Navy and decided to become a Yeoman – life improved.

From 1969 – 1980 – the greatest ERR – was on the part of M.E. That whole illusion sent me searching for God – the faith [neighbors] seemed to demonstrate.

From 1990 on – life got more difficult – --- brought great errs into my life which forced a deeper turn to spirituality.

Mary Ellen continued to err – with little recourse on my part.

1997 – with G---/N---, work staff turnover – and the continued low performance of M--- – the errs multiplied to having real enemies – a complete surprise to naïve me.

In 1997 – introduced to GC – 1998 – Fall – 1st book – 6/27/99 – started Steps.

I've been slow to respond and understand my need. I've certainly not understood the roots of ambivalence and confusion in the world.

The natural systems are better indicators, since they don't "think."

"Forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us." My errs have probably been greater. I need to ask forgiveness myself – but from whom?

8:02 a.m. So – where am I? – In recognition of my student ship – I err/others err – does that make us any less students? Not – so how do we move forward?

Our fragmentation is a luxury of our isolation from the greater community and lack of external harshness in the environment.

Do we need diversity for its own sake? – It is being lost as we become one world.

In spite of the errors – my life has quality and I am on my mission – soon to become more clear.

Amen & Amen
T-om Su-ne

7:25 p.m. Practice #2 – on the back porch. At lunch I went to the trail – walked in on the orphan side with my folding chair and ate my Whopper meal – didn't have much time – but it was nice –

It goes against the grain to be grateful for pain. In the S2K world – action is allowed – you need not to be a total victim – and there is real error – so, the lessons may require a long recovery, reflect real risk and trauma in life.

I just don't want any pain – to receive it or cause it. Just living leads to pain – but – error/ignorance is a great challenge. I don't know if I've much more sense than 10, 20, or 30 years ago. I'm not as wise as my father appeared to be when he was this age.

"Be grateful to those who teach you that it is hopeless to engage in any pursuit in the world without Knowledge." – I am seeking a greater connection to Knowledge for the pursuit of regional intelligence – my words for regional cooperation/integration.

How am I to know who is working w/o Knowledge? Results alone are not proof of internal intent?

Closing my eyes, it would be easy to disappear – but then the world would win I suppose – I'd miss the opportunity to help my kids – so they can get along in aches. It's this more existential pain –

How has N--- shown me what is necessary in my life?

What I am doing is persisting in the face of ignorance about the work I've done, the work I do – it is invisible – I cannot communicate it simply. I've developed "regional intelligence" as a concept – and I'm inventing a new way of thinking. This is my key mission – it makes Don Quixote look like a WWF champ compared to the windmills I engage with.

I've been exiled – Napoleon sent to St. Helena – imprisoned, yet set free – I even have time for this sitting on the back porch.

B--- is even more weird – the personnel expert architect for N---.

Then there's do-nothing/I'm entitled M---. Paying more attention might have helped, but the higher was bad from the start?

"In this, all who err against you become your friends, for even in their misery they serve you and will call upon you to serve them."
this day will soon come.

Are there any others who've erred against me? What about those I've erred against? Probably more that way –

Being nearly invisible – I've maintained a minimal body. No real defenses.

Still – I accumulated enemies, then made errors as I was attacked – still – neither doing right or wrong made a difference.

"Life is conspiring to bring you to Knowledge." My life and the errs included brought me to seek Knowledge – so it worked.

"Allow this day to be a day of forgiveness and a day of acceptance…" I do – Amen & Amen – T-om Su-ne

My company name – chocolate Vivaldi
"Chocolate Vivaldi"

11 p.m. Finished Beckworth – the Key is "passion" – I've had that, burned out, and found no staff peers with the same -

Still – I'm re-energized – with Knowledge online.

This was a long exercise and review. If you’ve taken on being highly aware of what is going on, it may be a little difficult to sleep. Let us continue.


Journal second time x2 Step 291.  This is for those who have completed Steps once. Doing Steps with only the texts, messages and your life experience, including what you may have studied and practiced is your journey. I’m showing Step comments after the Step, so as not to influence you in advance. It is a wilderness trek to be left to your own wits, but then you can also listen more closely for guides, angels and teachers, always first saying: “I surround and protect myself with the Love and the Grace of God.” Thankfully, I was taught this practice in 1989.

P.S. If you’ve some interest due to this or other Steps, you should go to the beginning blog post. From here you will learn about Steps to Knowledge and can begin it on the day that makes sense; then progress as needed. You can use the posts on this blog as a companion if it helps. They will remain in order in the archives - one post per Step.

Often it takes 18 months to get through the Steps once. For this blog, the pace is one-a-day, but it really makes no difference how fast you do it, only that you begin, persist and repeat. Posts here provide a trail that may let you have a virtual companion when and if you want one. One may have to study alone, as I did in the beginning. There are other Steps students blogging their experience and you might find a person more like you as a companion, or use a number of such Steps journeys. There are options as well through the Free School of the New Message.