Greetings All –
Step 293 - I do not wish
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| I do not wish to suffer today. Step 293 |
STRENGTHEN YOUR RESOLVE NOT TO SUFFER today by being
a student of Knowledge, by adhering to Knowledge and by devoting yourself to
Knowledge. Do not let the world draw you into its meaningless pursuits, into
its hopeless endeavors or into its incensed conflicts. All these things still
hold attraction for you, yet do not allow yourself to give into them today, for
the persuasions of the world are born of the world’s great anxiety and fear.
Anxiety and fear are like diseases that affect minds. Do not allow your mind to
be so affected today. You do not want to suffer today, and suffer you will if
you follow the world’s persuasions. Participate in the world and fulfill your mundane
responsibilities, but strengthen your resolve to be a student of Knowledge, for
this will free you from all suffering and will give you the greatness that you
are intended to give to the world.
UPON THE HOUR CONFIRM THAT YOU DO NOT WANT TO
SUFFER today and realize the inevitability of your suffering if you attempt to engage
yourself in the world without Knowledge. The world can only remind you of your
one great purpose and responsibility now, which is to become a student of
Knowledge. Be grateful that the world will support you in the only way that it
can, and be grateful that from your Ancient Home, God has extended Grace into
the world for you to receive and to learn to give.
PRACTICE 293: Hourly practice.
This is the third day where the student is to: “once again bring to mind every person that you
feel has erred against you, and once again attempt to understand their
contribution to you in bringing you to Knowledge.”
Based on my journal entry, I had no further people
to process at this date, though there would be a need in the future. That may
not be your case. Still, getting to complete gratitude ultimately took me many
years.
6:52
a.m. May 4, 2000 Thursday –
Waking up again in body. --- Having to get up. S2K
in the world to deal with. I've done my stretches. Having lunch on the trail,
in the park stands out yesterday. Living in a rich environment – where's the
feedback that leads to improvement?
---
Regional
Intelligence: using Local Boundaries Effectively/wholly/transparently –
boundary sliders – getting to where boundaries have no jurisdiction.
-
Ancient spirits forced to get a new life – moving on as sacred sites become
parking lots.
- if
history is the product of the transactions among people, and if the population
grows from 2.5 Bil in 1950 to 6 billion in 2000 – What is the exponential rate
of the growth of history – events of who struck John, who did Jill kiss?
Local
counts, the region's strategic for local interests – we have the local region –
Province, The region can have a top-down appointed governor, or a bottom up
elected chair – the bottom-up empowers – as HRPDC gets together, analyzes the
bigger picture, and beats the State over the head with its data. The region
empowered and locally owned uses the resources of the State to tell the State
it is doing things wrong –
There
is only one voter – I am local/I am state – from one side of my person I view a
local picture, from the other a bigger picture. There is conflict –
long-term/short-term, there are winners and losers, there is true ignorance
from isolated thinking.
What
can I learn here? What need I unlearn? Am I using a greater community
knowledge? Where do my ideas come from?
Compared
to my peers – I'm off the edge – from another planet.
10:20
p.m. Second practice – a long day…but good. B… and N… came over for a Personnel
Committee to select the interviewees for Exec. Director – I sat down with them
to go over priorities. I am concerned about the RP annual report. They set that
as a priority – Bev will call Lauren to find out what her role will be. I am so much more relaxed – and free.
292 "How can I be angry with the world when it
only serves me?" Were I not doing S2K would I be handling the shift this
way? I needed ACIM for the marriage – It had weakened –
I needed more teaching – so I am thankful.
I'm
outside – on the back porch. I need to be outside more. Is it a matter of
getting old?
S2K is an amazing document. It is a wise teaching.
I can tell because of its impact on me – the way the language works. I've many
years left on this earth – and I hope to spend it with greater Knowledge.
>recognition
of how the world serves me can only be done in the context of Knowledge – that
ends
all
hatred
towards the world
condemnation
of the world
resistance
to the world
this
will confirm
true
destiny
true
origin
true
purpose
for
being in the world
You
(I) have come into the world
to
recognize what is real and what is not
to
learn and unlearn
to
be a contributor, one sent from
beyond the world to serve here
"E.T.
phone home." Is what I wrote in the margin of the text when I read this
part. Numerous readings have hinted at ET origin for my soul (?) – plus a
latent image here and there.
"the
truth awaits you (me) and waits for you (me) to be ready to value it."
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11:17
p.m. Late to be up. I like to read the next day's lesson before I go to sleep.
This night I have too much energy – could be alignment at work – regardless –
when I have energy I want to go with it.
Back
to the question? Am I ready?
I
can conceive of myself as a spirit in the body. The logistics of it – must work
– and different views are similar enough to suggest truth. The why is, of
course, the great mystery.
The
middle zone – of E.T./Spirit is harder to fathom – since the viewpoints are so
varied. S2K seems objective on this count.
"Multiple
dimensions" is used to explain the variation. Certainly – I've experienced
the relative nature of time and can expand my thinking. So – I value my soul,
my spiritual family, and this current, conscious manifestation in the learning
environment of earth. I am peaceful – and I accept in my mind the Step today.
As
promised – "Today's idea will (has) in gender(ed) love and gratitude
towards the world and will strengthen this point of view, which will be
necessary for you to have, to look upon the world with certainty, love and
Knowledge."
→ the thought
that comes is fine, but I don't want pain. Step 293 follows: "I do not
wish to suffer today."
NNC
Journal second time x2
Step 292. This is for those who have completed
Steps once. Doing Steps with only the texts, messages and your life experience,
including what you may have studied and practiced is your journey. I’m showing
Step comments after the Step, so as not to influence you in advance. It is a
wilderness trek to be left to your own wits, but then you can also listen more
closely for guides, angels and teachers, always first saying: “I surround and
protect myself with the Love and the Grace of God.” Thankfully, I was taught
this practice in 1989.
P.S. If you’ve some interest due to this or other
Steps, you should go to the beginning blog post. From here you will learn about Steps to Knowledge
and can begin it on the day that makes sense; then progress as needed. You can
use the posts on this blog as a companion if it helps. They will remain in
order in the archives - one post per Step.
Often it takes 18 months to get through the Steps
once. For this blog, the pace is one-a-day, but it really makes no difference
how fast you do it, only that you begin, persist and repeat. Posts here provide
a trail that may let you have a virtual companion when and if you want one. One
may have to study alone, as I did in the beginning. There are other Steps
students blogging their experience and you might find a person more like you as
a companion, or use a number of such Steps journeys. There are options as well
through the Free School of the New Message.
