Step 195 - Knowledge is more powerful than I realize. Entry for Step 194 - I will go where I am needed today.

Greetings All –

KNOWLEDGE IS MORE POWERFUL THAN YOU REALIZE. It is also more wonderful than you realize. You are as yet afraid of it because of its great power. You are unsure if it will dominate you or control you, unsure of where it will take you and what you will have to do and unsure of what the result of all this will be. Yet, as you go away from Knowledge, you re-enter confusion and the world of imagination. As you come closer to Knowledge, you enter certainty, confirmation and a world of reality and purpose. How can you know Knowledge from a distance? How can you determine its meaning without receiving its gifts?

COME CLOSE TO KNOWLEDGE TODAY. Allow it to silently abide within you, as you are learning to silently abide with it. Nothing could be more central to your natural experience than the experience of Knowledge. Be glad that it is greater than you realize, for your evaluation has been small. Be glad that you cannot understand it yet, for your understanding would only limit it and its usefulness to you. Allow the great to be with you so that your greatness may be demonstrated and experienced today.

TAKE THIS IDEA WITH YOU AND PRACTICE IT UPON THE HOUR. Keep it in mind throughout the day. In your two longer practice periods, allow yourself to experience the depth of Knowledge. Feel the power of Knowledge. Strengthen your resolve to do so. Dedicate your self- discipline, for here self-discipline is wisely employed. Knowledge is greater than you realize. Therefore, you must learn to receive its greatness.

PRACTICE 195: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly practice.

From the Journal:

7:55 AM Thursday, January 27, 2000 –

Difficult staying concentrated on Steps – “Today I will go where I need to go.” I found out last night what a leave scam … has been playing. It made it hard to concentrate.

I want to have a place to go with my message, but I think I’m stuck and betrayed by having been nice. I do not know how to get out of these situations – so I seek Knowledge and wisdom.

I do not know why I am here…exactly. I have some ideas…but they are weak now.

10 AM The region – as a concept is in practice overwhelming/to those local

Not a lot here in the journal. This is a Step that requires an open mind. Often, our days are quite scheduled. As I did this step today, I asked the question hour to hour, then did what was seemed appropriate. Why I was needed in regular places was beyond me, but that’s part of The Mystery.     


P.S. At Step 195, we are into Part Two of Steps, so if you’ve found this and find some appeal in this or other Steps, you should really go to the beginning blog post. From here you learn about Steps to Knowledge and can begin it on the day that makes sense and then progress as needed. You can use the posts on this blog as a companion if it helps. They will remain in order in the archives - one per Step.

Often it takes 18 months to get through the Steps once. For this blog, the pace is one-a-day, but it really makes no difference how fast you do it, only that you begin, persist and repeat. Posts here provide a trail that may let you have a virtual companion when and if you want one. One may have to study alone, as I did in the beginning. There are other Steps students blogging their experience and you might find a person more like you as a companion, or use a number of such Steps journeys. There are options as well through the Free School of the New Message