|I will not be cruel with myself today. Step 209|
Step 209 - I will not be cruel with myself today. (MP3) Entry for Step 208 - All things I truly value will be expressed from Knowledge.
Greetings All –
Step 209 - I will not be cruel with myself today. (MP3) [Open in Drive or copy to your Drive – Download folder or play from Drive – Step PDF also.]
DO NOT BE CRUEL TO YOURSELF by attempting to wear your crown of thorns, which represents your system of beliefs and assumptions. Do not project upon yourself the weight of blame and unforgiveness. Do not attempt to force your mind to exemplify those qualities that you hold dear, for they will arise naturally from Knowledge.
INSTEAD, ENTER INTO STILLNESS in your two deeper practice periods, realizing once again that all things you most highly value will be naturally exemplified through Knowledge. All those things you find abhorrent will naturally fade away. A mind thus liberated can bestow the greatest possible gift upon the world.
CONSIDER THIS, THEN, UPON THE HOUR as you attempt to apply today’s idea to all you see, hear and do. Do not be cruel with yourself today, for there is no justification for this. Allow yourself to be blessed so that you may bless the world. Allow yourself to bless the world so that you yourself may be blessed.
PRACTICE 209: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly practice.
From the Journal:
6:10 a.m. Wednesday, February 9, 2000 – My vitality for my office work has returned. The green ink might eventually come through this pen.
6:20 a.m. S2K says it is giving you an ability to be objective – it is possible/probable that we make errors under this view – lose time in our lives, though each error piles on as a reason to seek knowledge. This perspective has helped me recover my vitality.
7:41 a.m. Yesterday's thought on the road – "governance is all about boundaries." Can you have governance w/o boundaries? The notion of a boundary-less/edgeless world is absurd? Always edges –
8:15 a.m. Step 208 "all things I truly value will be expressed from Knowledge." – The text "All things that are most highly valued human life – love, patience, devotion, tolerance, forgiveness, true accomplishment, courage and faith – all naturally arise from Knowledge."
- These are outward expressions of the mind that is serving knowledge – and arise naturally
→ What requires self-discipline is to reorient my focus, reorient my devotion and reorient by service.
→ either you serve Knowledge (Holy Spirit) or one of its substitutes.
I am to actively apply these ideas in the long practices, therefore I'm writing this out. The awareness of the personal benefit of the refocusing was expressed in my first two entries this day, 6:10 and 6:20 a.m.
I have been able to recover my service focus and expanded as the GCW/S2K have allowed me to see better the barriers I encounter and to manage my frustration better, so as not to self inflict more pain by becoming "hurt."
I guess my new focus in dealing with people is to draw out their knowledge in order to get their contribution.
11:29 p.m. A long and generally good day. Work is flowing, though I'm immeasurably behind. Worked until 8:45 p.m. – went to store – getting in @ 9:15. ---
Practice #2 – Step 208
re-orient – focus, devotion and service …
Seems like there has been progress today. Let us keep at the Steps.
Journal second time x2 Step 208. This is for those who have completed Steps once. Doing Steps with only the texts, messages and your life experience, including what you may have studied and practiced is your journey. I’m showing Step comments after the Step, so as not to influence you in advance. It is a wilderness trek to be left to your own wits, but then you can also listen more closely for guides, angels and teachers, always first saying: “I surround and protect myself with the Love and the Grace of God.” Thankfully, I was taught this practice in 1989.
P.S. If you’ve some interest due to this or other Steps, you should go to the beginning blog post. From here you will learn about Steps to Knowledge and can begin it on the day that makes sense; then progress as needed. You can use the posts on this blog as a companion if it helps. They will remain in order in the archives - one post per Step.
Often it takes 18 months to get through the Steps once. For this blog, the pace is one-a-day, but it really makes no difference how fast you do it, only that you begin, persist and repeat. Posts here provide a trail that may let you have a virtual companion when and if you want one. One may have to study alone, as I did in the beginning. There are other Steps students blogging their experience and you might find a person more like you as a companion, or use a number of such Steps journeys. There are options as well through the Free School of the New Message.