Greetings All –
Step 228 - I will not be poor today. Entry for Step 227 - I will not think that I know today.
Greetings All –
YOU NEED NOT BE POOR, FOR POVERTY is neither your heritage nor your true destiny. Do not be poor today, for Knowledge is the great wealth, and once it is allowed to emerge within any mind, it begins to generate its presence naturally in the world. It begins to balance and harmonize the mind that is its vehicle, and it begins to give specifically to certain individuals in specific ways. This is the genius that is with you. How can you be poor with such a gift? Only your self-deprecating ideas and forms of behavior can engender poverty.
THEREFORE, TODAY BEGIN TO LOOK MORE DEEPLY at those things that are forms of obstruction to you. Think of this upon the hour. In your two deeper practice periods, engage your mind actively in attempting to discern specific forms of self-deception and self-obstruction. Do this without condemnation, but with the objectivity that is necessary to view yourself clearly. Do not be dismayed that there are many subtle forms of self-deception. They are merely slight variations upon very simple themes. Their seeming complexity and number are unimportant except that you recognize them. They are all born of fear and the attempt to offset fear by engaging in illusion and by attempting to engage others in supporting illusion. All ideas without Knowledge serve this purpose, either directly or indirectly. Yet, real purpose is the great force behind ideas that are for true service, as it is the great force behind all forms of action and behavior that are for true service.
TODAY WE WILL LOOK AT OBSTACLES, but not with shame, guilt or anxiety. Look only to strengthen the presence and the application of Knowledge and only to prepare yourself to be a greater vehicle for Knowledge in the world. That is the purpose of today’s practice. Therefore, practice with true intent. You are greater than the errors that you perceive, and they cannot deceive you if you look at them objectively.
PRACTICE 228: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly practice.
Thoughtful during the day of this Step. From the Journal:
12:05 a.m. February 28, 2000. The S2K deals with life in a unique way.
12:14 a.m. What do I think? I want to be useful.
Is there something I know? I shall make it.
6:25 a.m. it is Monday. No matter how connected, life requires work - the work of getting up.
7:58 a.m. I don't know how or why I got into this earth context. I will stay. If I can avoid heavy lifting - that would be life easing. I'm not very attached to my body.
Whatever level of awareness of Knowledge that I have, I don't think I Know much. I have a sense that this regional work is important. S2K evokes an urgency - like Y2K. I'm comforted by the awareness of a family of practice. Decision to serve God is not difficult. How to enhance this - I don't yet know.
→ I'm in the bathroom - cleaning up, ready to get dressed. How would I be thinking, acting, doing if I were more guided by Knowledge? I'm on a path seeking that, but I don't know what will result. My only expectation is that I get a "well done" upon return to my spiritual family.
The Steps page, at the bottom, contains a projection:
Tommy C. goes back to elementary school. I got rid of that in the 4th grade when I wrote Tom on my papers. Here it is a reflection of the smallness I feel, the respectfulness and humility, as I am: “only a thought away from the primal source of all creation – the thought that releases the mind to the soul and return to Stillness / Love / Grace / Being.” No doubt I’m at a high point, but what is next? You may be here, or were there earlier, or it is yet to come – with your own sensibility.
P.S. At Step 228, we are into Part Two of Steps, so if you’ve found this and find some appeal in this or other Steps, you should really go to the beginning blog post. From here you learn about Steps to Knowledge and can begin it on the day that makes sense and then progress as needed. You can use the posts on this blog as a companion if it helps. They will remain in order in the archives - one per Step.
Often it takes 18 months to get through the Steps once. For this blog, the pace is one-a-day, but it really makes no difference how fast you do it, only that you begin, persist and repeat. Posts here provide a trail that may let you have a virtual companion when and if you want one. One may have to study alone, as I did in the beginning. There are other Steps students blogging their experience and you might find a person more like you as a companion, or use a number of such Steps journeys. There are options as well through the Free School of the New Message.