Greetings All –
Step 219 - I will not let ambition deceive me today. Entry for Step 218 - I will hold Knowledge within myself today.
Greetings All –
AS KNOWLEDGE IS NOW BEGINNING TO GERMINATE within you, do not allow your own ambition to deceive you. Your ambition is born of your personal need for recognition and reassurance. It is an attempt to counteract fear by controlling the opinions of others. Your ambition here is destructive, but like all other faculties of mind that are now misappropriated, in time it can serve the greatness of Knowledge. You have not achieved this state yet; therefore, do not attempt to do anything with your Knowledge, for it is not for you to use Knowledge but to receive Knowledge. It is in your receptivity to Knowledge that you will find Knowledge to be of the greatest service and usefulness to you.
DO NOT LET AMBITION PULL YOU WHERE YOU CANNOT GO. Do not let it misappropriate your vitality and your energy. Learn to become patient and calm with Knowledge, for Knowledge has its own goal and direction in life, which you are now learning to follow.
THROUGHOUT TODAY IN YOUR HOURLY PRACTICES and in your deeper meditations as well, allow yourself to be without ambition, for you do not know what to do with Knowledge. In your longer meditations, allow this to free you so that you may enter stillness and leave the world of physical things.
PRACTICE 219: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly practice.
The Step advises: “You are not yet wise, so keep Knowledge within yourself today. Allow it to strengthen itself. Allow it to grow.” The Teachers will make this sort of recommendation often. This is a journey of personal growth that is internal and keeping things to yourself is a means of building discernment. No instant results.
Note relating to WISDOM – “A worthy goal.”
In the margin: “Knowledge/HS have deep roots now!”
From the Journal:
8:25 a.m. Saturday, February 19, 2000 – Sarah may get to rehab. ---
8:35 a.m. Sprawl is irreversible in the short term. It began in the 1950s – it hasn't peaked. Plus there is more, more travel. John Naisbitt – 1/7 of the world economy would be travel.
5:25 p.m. @ Little Bear – 218 #2 "I will hold Knowledge within myself today."
8:42 p.m. Where am I? --- Sarah is in the hospital for treatment. M.E. took her there. I spoke to Sarah this a.m. she still was willing to go – M.E. must have gotten it quickly. ---
– Called the hospital – she's asleep
11 p.m. – regional Knowledge Who can use – needs to know regions?
Yes, I am doing the Steps and leaving notes with in a complex life, just like you. Be sure to leave some notes for yourself for the review coming up and years later.
P.S. At Step 219, we are into Part Two of Steps, so if you’ve found this and find some appeal in this or other Steps, you should really go to the beginning blog post. From here you learn about Steps to Knowledge and can begin it on the day that makes sense and then progress as needed. You can use the posts on this blog as a companion if it helps. They will remain in order in the archives - one per Step.
Often it takes 18 months to get through the Steps once. For this blog, the pace is one-a-day, but it really makes no difference how fast you do it, only that you begin, persist and repeat. Posts here provide a trail that may let you have a virtual companion when and if you want one. One may have to study alone, as I did in the beginning. There are other Steps students blogging their experience and you might find a person more like you as a companion, or use a number of such Steps journeys. There are options as well through the Free School of the New Message.