Greetings All –
THE ATTEMPT TO BE SPECIAL UNDERLIES ALL HUMAN
AMBITION. All human ambition that is not born of Knowledge is born of the
attempt to offset the grave disappointment and great anxiety of separation. The
attempt to be special is the attempt to fortify separation. It is the attempt
to make yourself greater at the expense of others. It always denies life and
Knowledge and always leads to greater confusion, frustration and despair.
YOU ARE FREED THIS DAY FROM ATTEMPTING to make
yourself special, for in this way you will find the true relief that you have sought
in all of your previous endeavors. What is special in you is your unique form
of expression of that which is inherent in all life. Then, that which joins
life and is life is affirmed. Your individuality is affirmed as well, but not
to the exclusion of the value of any other expression of life. Here you are not
special. You are simply you. You are greater than an individual because you are
part of life, and yet you are an individual because you express life
individually. Here all conflict and confusion end. That which is limited
expresses that which is unlimited, and that which is unique expresses that
which is inherent and intrinsic. This is the resolution that you seek, for you
do not really wish to be special. You only wish to have your individual life
have purpose, meaning and direction.
UPON THE HOUR THINK OF THIS after you repeat the
idea for today. In your deeper practices, enter into stillness and peace once again.
Do not petition for answers because you do not need to do this in your
meditation practices. Your time now is to practice receiving Knowledge, in which
your individuality is honored and confirmed for its true purpose and in which
your specialness, which has only been a grave and impossible burden for you, is
gently lifted from your shoulders. Do not seek to be special today, for that is
not the purpose of your life. Then, all fear of death and destruction will
leave you. Then, all judgment and comparison with others will leave you. Then, you
will be able to honor life and honor your relationships, which are an expression of everything today’s lesson
will teach you.
PRACTICE 243: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly
practice.
The more one understands Knowledge, the more this
Step means. Over years, understanding grows with practice and experience. A few
thoughts in the Journal:
6:29
a.m. Wednesday, March 15, 2000 –
Be still and Know
– all of S2K is in the Bible. I choose to connect to Knowledge and use it
instead of an anger producing response in the world.
7:50
a.m. I have long recognized the wealth that is present and available in my
life. To give it away – making people aware of it.
All of S2K is not in the Bible, but its roots can
be recognized in Christianity, Judaism and other world religions. “Be still and
Know that I am God” is a phrase that stuck with me.
The Steps page has many underlines and finishes with
“Amen.” My top thought: "I hire gifted people and their job is to
give." An expression of
idealism perhaps? Those that worked at the Commission wanted to fix the world.
Idealists maybe don’t work well together. Whose idealism leads?
Let us continue.
NNC
P.S. At Step 243, we are into Part Two of Steps, so
if you’ve found this and find some appeal in this or other Steps, you should
really go to the beginning blog post. From here you learn about Steps to Knowledge and
can begin it on the day that makes sense and then progress as needed. You can
use the posts on this blog as a companion if it helps. They will remain in
order in the archives - one per Step.
Often it takes 18 months to get through the Steps
once. For this blog, the pace is one-a-day, but it really makes no difference
how fast you do it, only that you begin, persist and repeat. Posts here provide
a trail that may let you have a virtual companion when and if you want one. One
may have to study alone, as I did in the beginning. There are other Steps
students blogging their experience and you might find a person more like you as
a companion, or use a number of such Steps journeys. There are options as well
through the Free School of the New Message.
