Step 19 - Today I wish to see. (MP3) Entry for Step 18 - Today I feel the truth arising within myself.

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Step 19 - Today I wish to see.  (MP3)  [Open in Drive or copy to your Drive – Download folder or play from Drive – Step PDF also.]

Today I wish to see. Step 19
THE DESIRE TO SEE IS LIKE THE DESIRE TO KNOW. It too requires a refinement of your mind’s faculties. To see with clear vision means you are not seeing with preference. It means that you are able to perceive that which is actually occurring rather than that which you wish to see. There is something actually occurring beyond your wishes. This is very true. The desire to see, then, is the desire to see a greater truth. This requires a greater honesty and a greater openness of mind.

TODAY IN YOUR TWO PRACTICE SESSIONS, practice looking upon one simple mundane object. Do not take your eyes off of that object, but look and practice looking very conscientiously. You are not trying to see anything. You are simply looking with an open mind. When the mind is open, it experiences its own depth, and it experiences the depth of what it is perceiving.

CHOOSE ONE SIMPLE OBJECT THAT HAS VERY LITTLE MEANING for you and gaze upon it twice today for at least 15 minutes. Allow your mind to become very still. Breathe deeply and regularly as you gaze upon this object. Allow your mind to settle down into itself.

PRACTICE 19: Two 15-minute practice periods

Like many Steps, 18 has a checklist built-in for our learning:

From the Journal:

7 A.M. Tuesday, Aug 3, 1999 - In meditation Step 18 - Today felt the Truth Arising within me Starting the day this way feels good. To move/relax deeply into this connection - How can I anchor peace/spirit and be connected to humans. Expectations are so high and resources are so low. Doing something with the mind. 
1:07 p.m. Step 18 #2
11: 35 p.m.
My third session of feeling the truth never got me there totally. Too much on my mind. S2K says we must find those people we are to meet. That is appealing yet flaky. I'd like to meet and be in peer relationships with a better group. No sense of who they might be. I guess that will emerge.

This is only Step 18. Much more lies ahead.


Journal 2nd Time Step 18.  This is for those who have completed Steps once. Doing Steps with only the texts, messages and your life experience, including what you may have studied and practiced is your journey. I’m showing my first year Step comments after the Step, so as not to influence you in advance. It is a wilderness trek to be left to your own wits, but then you can also listen more closely for guides, angels and teachers, always first saying: “I surround and protect myself with the Love and the Grace of God.” Thankfully, I was taught this practice in 1989.

P.S. If you’ve some interest due to this or other Steps, you should go to the beginning blog post. From here you will learn about Steps to Knowledge and can begin it on the day that makes sense; then progress as needed. You can use the posts on this blog as a companion if it helps. They will remain in order in the archives - one post per Step.

Often it takes 18 months to get through the Steps once. For this blog, the pace is one-a-day, but it really makes no difference how fast you do it, only that you begin, persist and repeat. Posts here provide a trail that may let you have a virtual companion when and if you want one. One may have to study alone, as I did in the beginning. There are other Steps students blogging their experience and you might find a person more like you as a companion, or use a number of such Steps journeys. There are options as well through the Free School of the New Message.