Greetings All –
HOW CAN YOU POSSIBLY FULFILL YOURSELF when you do
not know who you are, when you do not know where you have come from or where
you are going, when you do not know who
has sent you and who will be waiting for
you when you return? How can you possibly fulfill yourself alone when you are
part of life itself? Can you fulfill yourself apart from life? Only in fantasy
and imagination can you possibly even entertain the idea of fulfilling
yourself. There is no fulfillment here, only increasing confusion. As the years
progress, you will feel a growing darkness within you, as if a great
opportunity has been lost. Do not lose this opportunity to realize
life as it truly exists and to receive fulfillment as it is truly offered to
you.
ONLY IN IMAGINATION CAN YOU FULFILL YOURSELF otherwise,
and imagination is not reality. Accepting this may at first seem like a limitation
and a disappointment, for you already have designs and motives for your own
personal fulfillment, whether they have been experienced or not. Your entire
agenda for your fulfillment must now be brought into question, not to deprive
you of anything of value, but to release you from a bondage which could only
deceive and disappoint you in time. Therefore, accepting the hopelessness of
your attempt to fulfill yourself opens you finally to receive the great gift which
is available to you and which is
awaiting you. This great gift is meant to be given through you into the world
in a way that is specific for your happiness and for the happiness of those who
will naturally be drawn to you.
HOW CAN YOU POSSIBLY FULFILL YOURSELF? Upon the
hour today, repeat this question and give it a moment of serious consideration, regardless of your
circumstances. As you practice upon the
hour, look out into the world and see how people are trying to fulfill themselves, both in situations that now exist
and in situations that are hoped for. Understand how much this separates them
from life as it truly exists. Understand how this separates them from the
mystery of their own existence and the wonder of life that they are free to
encounter every moment of every day. Do not allow yourself to be so deprived. Fantasy
will always paint a grand picture for you, but it has no foundation in reality.
Only those who attempt to fortify each other’s fantasies will attempt
relationship with each other for this purpose, and their disappointment will be
mutual, for which they will be inclined to blame each other. Do not seek, then,
that which can only bring you unhappiness and only destroy the great
opportunity for relationship for you.
UPON THE HOUR REPEAT THIS STATEMENT. In your two
practice periods, enter stillness and receptivity so that you may learn to receive fulfillment as it
truly exists.
PRACTICE 95: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly
practice.
Note: “Do not lose this opportunity to realize life as it
truly exists and to receive fulfillment as it is truly offered to you.” There is an opportunity here. It will take work.
From the Journal:
9:42
October 19 – Tuesday – at home yet – overwhelmed and behind at the office. …
6:08
p.m. At home to meditate #2 “My freedom is to find my purpose.”
6:15
p.m. Yet to start. This was a good day.
The 30 minute meditations help – though often I can’t do the full 30 minutes. …
The page – green ink underlines.
Admin note: Composing these posts in Blogger leads to font size variation that is hard to understand. I've begun composing in docx and pasting in Blogger. Perhaps this will get more consistent formatting.
NNC
