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Step 44 - I wish to know
my own strength. (MP3)
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| I wish to know my own strength. Step 44 |
THIS AFFIRMATION YOU MAY FIND
VERY ACCEPTABLE because of your immediate need for it in your current
circumstances, but the affirmation is far deeper than you may at first realize.
You have far more strength than you have claimed, but it cannot be fully realized
until its application is directed in a manner that truly regenerates you and
brings forth your true abilities.
HOW CAN YOU APPROACH YOUR
STRENGTH when you feel weak and helpless, when you feel unworthy, if you are
burdened by guilt or confusion or in anger blame others for your own apparent
failures? To claim your strength means to release all that holds you back. You
do not release your obstacles by claiming they do not exist. You release them
because you value something greater. Their obstruction is merely the sign that
you must pass through them. Your own strength is then cultivated. You seek your
strength, and you use it to find your strength. We wish for you to know your
strength and to utilize it on your own behalf.
IN YOUR TWO MEDITATION PRACTICES TODAY,
in silence and in stillness, attempt to feel your own strength. Do not let
thoughts alone dissuade you, for fears and doubts are only thoughts—vaporous
things that cross your mind like clouds. Beyond the clouds of your mind is the
great universe of Knowledge. Therefore, do not let the clouds obstruct your
view of the stars beyond.
PRACTICE 44: Two 30-minute
practice periods.
Picture: Crew
racing on the Potomac River viewed from the Key Bridge between D.C. and
Rosslyn.
Yesterday: Step
43 - My will is to know God.
One's own will is often considered to, of course, be
opposite to God's will. Presented with God's will as children and young adults,
what is expected seems to require greater restraint on our lives than we are
want.
This Step says directly in LOUD CAPITAL LETTERS: "YOUR
WILL IS TO KNOW GOD." Today I find that something I can
readily agree with.
From the Journal:
7:54 A.M. (CDT) Plano, TX - Sunday, August 29,1999 - S2K
"My will is to KNOW GOD." This was a good meditation. I'm finding S2K
very powerful. Mentally, I repeated the day's affirmation. There is no ego to
make it difficult. As I repeated the affirmation, it became a song and then I
was joined by the Family of Sha-ron - as in a choir they joined - so the song
became "Our will is to KNOW GOD." It became a huge scene with
musicians, drummers, dancers - all my family. Amazing talented souls - and me
here as a point of light on earth dong my will.
It was an amazing meditation. Not a holy Instant - I could
see that all in the world were "self" exploring the manifests
reality.
...
My will is to Know God and in that pursuit encourage and
assist others in connecting with this will in themselves/or to understand it is
working all the time, though results may not suggest that.
My feeling now - a mellow understanding/Knowing that is
happy and grateful to be here.
8:47 A.M. Awakening in yet a new way. There is not good but
God; this is good; this is God.
It is all communication.
Just to be honest, in spite of this great
meditation, the journal also notes several bumps that day in my human
relationships.
NNC
Journal
2nd Time Step 43.
This is for those who have completed
Steps once. Doing Steps with only the texts, messages and your life experience,
including what you may have studied and practiced is your journey. I’m showing Step
comments after the Step, so as not to influence you in advance. It is a
wilderness trek to be left to your own wits, but then you can also listen more
closely for guides, angels and teachers, always first saying: “I surround and
protect myself with the Love and the Grace of God.” Thankfully, I was taught
this practice in 1989.
P.S. If you’ve some interest due to this or other
Steps, you should go to the beginning blog post. From here you will learn about Steps to Knowledge
and can begin it on the day that makes sense; then progress as needed. You can
use the posts on this blog as a companion if it helps. They will remain in
order in the archives - one post per Step.
Often it takes 18 months to get through the Steps
once. For this blog, the pace is one-a-day, but it really makes no difference
how fast you do it, only that you begin, persist and repeat. Posts here provide
a trail that may let you have a virtual companion when and if you want one. One
may have to study alone, as I did in the beginning. There are other Steps
students blogging their experience and you might find a person more like you as
a companion, or use a number of such Steps journeys. There are options as well
through the Free School of the New Message.
