Greetings All –
Step 100 - Today I am a
beginning student of Knowledge. (MP3)
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| "Today I am a beginning student of Knowledge." Step 100 |
YOU
ARE A BEGINNING STUDENT OF KNOWLEDGE. Accept this starting place. Do not claim
more for yourself, for you do not understand the road to Knowledge. On the road
to greater assumptions you may have garnered great rewards for yourself, but
that leads in another direction from the road to Knowledge, where all things
that are unreal are relinquished and all things that are genuine are embraced.
The road to Knowledge is not a road that people have imagined for themselves,
for it is not born of imagination.
THEREFORE,
BE A BEGINNING STUDENT OF KNOWLEDGE. Upon the hour repeat this statement and
give it serious consideration. Regardless of your view of yourself, whether it
is exalted or diminished, no matter what you have done before, no matter what
you consider your accomplishments to be, you are a beginning student of
Knowledge. As a beginning student you will want to learn everything that can be
learned, and you will not have the burden of defending that which you think you
have claimed already. This will ease your burden in life considerably and give
you the possibility for true motivation and enthusiasm, which are lacking now.
BE A
BEGINNING STUDENT OF KNOWLEDGE. Begin your two longer practice periods with
this affirmation and allow yourself to sit in stillness and to receive. Without
petitions, without questions and without expectations or demands, allow your
mind to be quiet, for you are a beginning student of Knowledge and do not yet
know what to ask for or what to expect.
PRACTICE
100: Two 30-minute practice periods.
Hourly practice.
I was 52 when I started Steps; turned 53 at Step 91, just 9 Steps ago. I
did not have a problem being a beginner then, nor even now. The entire work is
so great, that there is always something new to incorporate, integrate and
apply. As it says, being a beginning student has advantages as it enables
learning.
Yesterday: Step
99 - I will not blame the world today.
12:41 A.M. I shall work to forget and avoid the
pain. Sarah [my daughter] is in jail in
Texas. … I’m so sad I can’t admit the pain. …
4:20 p.m. – Looking at the world. What do I see –
observe. Stuff – the natural environment – trees, plants/lawns – gardens that
are cultivated from natural biology – and things formed by man from the raw
material of the natural earth. I’m sheltered by this home. A cool/cold fall
wind is blowing. A siren from a fire truck sounds, the diesel roar of the motor
tells the vehicle is not police on rescue. The light in the bathroom reflects
the flow of electricity from a distant generator. There is light and warmth
here. I’ve clothes – I’ve what I need to continue my life. There are seashells
in my view – skeletons of sea life years and miles from here. Decoration by
death for life. Wood – picture frames, window frames – one living material, now
holding up against long term decay. I see magazines … intelligence or, at
least, words, sentences, stories and articles which intend to give knowledge
about the world. A plastic curtain – taken from petroleum reserves –
hydrocarbons from an earlier time. What is not seen is the pain, agony, fear
and abuse which were part of the creation of this environment. What about love?
I guess the fact that there is anything at all is the demonstration of love. My
own being here – the eyes looking out – movement of the pen shows that #8 is
here – but how does it make the 7?
Even though I’ve used the words fear, pain, abuse –
even love – this is not judgment but perception; placement on the continuum –
amen
11:54 p.m. My life – a conspiracy against my
sanity.
I went to the woods for my 2nd session –
“I will not blame the world today.” The previous statement sounds like blame.
My goals of getting caught up at work have been
crushed. But – what is new.
At claritree – a yellowing maple – I lay on my back
at its base along the stream bank and looked up to the sky. It was 6:30 p.m. –
cool wind, cloud darkened sky. I looked at the world without judgment. It felt
very good – I did not want to leave – I saw energy move – wisps of fog – in and
out among the branches.
Lots of writing if you went through all of it. I leave out personal
items, but what is presented is as written – without formal punctuation. I do
correct spelling errors, but this is what is written. It need not make sense,
just not be crazy.
NNC
Journal
second time x2 Step 99.
This is for those who have completed Steps
once. Doing Steps with only the texts, messages and your life experience,
including what you may have studied and practiced is your journey. I’m showing
Step comments after the Step, so as not to influence you in advance. It is a
wilderness trek to be left to your own wits, but then you can also listen more
closely for guides, angels and teachers, always first saying: “I surround and
protect myself with the Love and the Grace of God.” Thankfully, I was taught
this practice in 1989.
P.S. If you’ve some interest due to this or other
Steps, you should go to the beginning blog post. From here you will learn about Steps to Knowledge
and can begin it on the day that makes sense; then progress as needed. You can
use the posts on this blog as a companion if it helps. They will remain in
order in the archives - one post per Step.
Often it takes 18 months to get through the Steps
once. For this blog, the pace is one-a-day, but it really makes no difference
how fast you do it, only that you begin, persist and repeat. Posts here provide
a trail that may let you have a virtual companion when and if you want one. One
may have to study alone, as I did in the beginning. There are other Steps
students blogging their experience and you might find a person more like you as
a companion, or use a number of such Steps journeys. There are options as well
through the Free School of the New Message.
