Greetings All –
Step 94 - My freedom is
to find my purpose. (MP3)
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| "My freedom is to find my purpose." Step 94 |
WHAT VALUE CAN
FREEDOM POSSIBLY HAVE except to enable you to find your purpose and to fulfill
it? Without purpose, freedom is merely the right to be chaotic, the right to
live without external restraint. But without external restraint, you will
merely act out the harshness of your internal restraint. Is this an
improvement? Overall it is not an improvement, though it can lead to
opportunities for self-discovery.
DO
NOT CALL CHAOS FREEDOM, for this is not freedom. Do not think that because others
do not limit you that you are in an exalted state. Realize that your freedom is
to enable you to find your purpose and to fulfill it. Understanding freedom in
this way will enable you to utilize all aspects of your life—your current
situation, your relationships, your involvements, your successes, your errors,
your attributes and your limitations—everything on behalf of discovering your
purpose. For when a greater purpose begins to express itself through you in a
manner that you can recognize and accept, you will feel at last that your life
is being completely integrated. You will no longer be separate individuals
within yourself, but one person, whole and unified, with all aspects of
yourself engaged in serving this one purpose.
THE
FREEDOM TO COMMIT ERRORS WILL NOT REDEEM YOU. Errors can be committed under any
circumstances, and freedom can be found under any circumstances. Therefore,
seek to learn about freedom. Knowledge will express itself when it is
unfettered and when you as a person have developed sufficiently to be able to
carry its great mission in the world. Your Spiritual Teachers, who abide with
you beyond your visual sight, are here to initiate you into Knowledge. They
have their own method for doing this, for they understand the true meaning of
freedom and its true purpose in the world.
THEREFORE,
IN YOUR PRACTICE PERIODS we once again affirm the power of this statement and
give you two opportunities to experience it deeply within yourself. You do not
need to try to speculate about this mentally, but simply relax so that it can
be experienced. Focus your mind
completely to allow it to experience the greatness of the presence of God that
is with you and that is within you, for this is looking in the direction of
freedom where freedom truly exists.
PRACTICE
94: Two 30-minute practice periods.
Much to think about in this Step. On the notion of restraint as a
criterion of freedom, the Rolling Stones song "Sympathy For The Devil" comes to mind for me because of this stanza
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"…
Just call me Lucifer
Cause I'm in need of some restraint
So if you meet me
Have some courtesy
Have some sympathy, and some taste
Use all your well-learned politesse…”
Restraint is something we
will learn to understand.
Yesterday: Step
93 - I am sent here for a purpose.
From
the journal:
October 18, 1999
5:30 p.m. Home to meditate – then return to work to
complete time sheets. “I am sent here for a purpose.” Sensed the “stillness”
right – here. I would be happy to find my purpose 2012 timing suggests many
years. What will the days be? I do not know!
8:17 p.m. Where am I? I ought to be able to enter
four time sheets of data in 90 minutes. I am in anticipation of my purpose
emerging more directly
.
Relationships on relationships. Divide and conquer,
divide and manage. All I want to do is keep the PDC alive so it can be passed
to someone. If things will need to get worse for cooperation to increase – what
will that mean for us?
I have no choice but to hang on.
What role might you or I play in the world? That is a challenge to the
mind. Is the work we are now doing part of that or not? How will we know? If
you’ve worked much, you all jobs have their boring, mundane and crazy elements.
The journal is a good place to work it out, though much of it will sound
distinctly unspiritual.
NNC
Journal
second time x2 Step 93. This is for those who have completed Steps
once. Doing Steps with only the texts, messages and your life experience,
including what you may have studied and practiced is your journey. I’m showing
Step comments after the Step, so as not to influence you in advance. It is a
wilderness trek to be left to your own wits, but then you can also listen more
closely for guides, angels and teachers, always first saying: “I surround and
protect myself with the Love and the Grace of God.” Thankfully, I was taught
this practice in 1989.
P.S. If you’ve some interest due to this or other
Steps, you should go to the beginning blog post. From here you will learn about Steps to Knowledge
and can begin it on the day that makes sense; then progress as needed. You can
use the posts on this blog as a companion if it helps. They will remain in
order in the archives - one post per Step.
Often it takes 18 months to get through the Steps
once. For this blog, the pace is one-a-day, but it really makes no difference
how fast you do it, only that you begin, persist and repeat. Posts here provide
a trail that may let you have a virtual companion when and if you want one. One
may have to study alone, as I did in the beginning. There are other Steps
students blogging their experience and you might find a person more like you as
a companion, or use a number of such Steps journeys. There are options as well
through the Free School of the New Message.
