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Step 95 - How can I
possibly fulfill myself? (MP3)
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| "How can I possibly fulfill myself?" Step 95 |
HOW
CAN YOU POSSIBLY FULFILL YOURSELF when you do not know who you are, when you do
not know where you have come from or where you are going, when you do not know who has sent you and who will
be waiting for you when you return? How
can you possibly fulfill yourself alone when you are part of life itself? Can
you fulfill yourself apart from life? Only in fantasy and imagination can you
possibly even entertain the idea of fulfilling yourself. There is no
fulfillment here, only increasing confusion. As the years progress, you will
feel a growing darkness within you, as if a great opportunity has been lost. Do
not lose this opportunity to realize life as it truly exists and to receive
fulfillment as it is truly offered to you.
ONLY
IN IMAGINATION CAN YOU FULFILL YOURSELF otherwise, and imagination is not
reality. Accepting this may at first seem like a limitation and a
disappointment, for you already have designs and motives for your own personal
fulfillment, whether they have been experienced or not. Your entire agenda for
your fulfillment must now be brought into question, not to deprive you of
anything of value, but to release you from a bondage which could only deceive
and disappoint you in time. Therefore, accepting the hopelessness of your
attempt to fulfill yourself opens you finally to receive the great gift which
is available to you and which is
awaiting you. This great gift is meant to be given through you into the world
in a way that is specific for your happiness and for the happiness of those who
will naturally be drawn to you.
HOW
CAN YOU POSSIBLY FULFILL YOURSELF? Upon the hour today, repeat this question
and give it a moment of serious consideration, regardless of your
circumstances. As you practice upon the
hour, look out into the world and see how people are trying to fulfill themselves, both in situations that now exist
and in situations that are hoped for. Understand how much this separates them
from life as it truly exists. Understand how this separates them from the
mystery of their own existence and the wonder of life that they are free to
encounter every moment of every day. Do not allow yourself to be so deprived.
Fantasy will always paint a grand picture for you, but it has no foundation in
reality. Only those who attempt to fortify each other’s fantasies will attempt
relationship with each other for this purpose, and their disappointment will be
mutual, for which they will be inclined to blame each other. Do not seek, then,
that which can only bring you unhappiness and only destroy the great
opportunity for relationship for you.
UPON
THE HOUR REPEAT THIS STATEMENT. In your two practice periods, enter stillness
and receptivity so that you may learn to receive fulfillment as it truly
exists.
PRACTICE
95: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly practice.
Note: “Do not lose this opportunity to realize life as it
truly exists and to receive fulfillment as it is truly offered to you.” There is an opportunity here. It will take
work.
Yesterday: journal
Step
94 - My freedom is to find my purpose.
From
the journal:
9:42 October 19 – Tuesday – at home yet –
overwhelmed and behind at the office. …
6:08 p.m. At home to meditate #2 “My freedom is to
find my purpose.”
6:15 p.m. Yet to start. This was a good day.
The 30 minute meditations help – though often I
can’t do the full 30 minutes. …
The page – green ink underlines.
In
this year, 2015 – April 5 is Easter Sunday, a holy and blessed day. From the
cross, Jesus said: “Father, forgive them; for they know not what they do.” Luke
23:34 King James Version (KJV). It seems to have to applied to those who
crucified him, but I came to feel it applied to all of us here on earth – “We
know not what we do.” Steps to Knowledge is a means of learning what we do. Let
us honor the good people on this day and let us continue our practice so we
might “know what we do.”
NNC
Journal
second time x2 Step 94.
This is for those who have completed Steps
once. Doing Steps with only the texts, messages and your life experience,
including what you may have studied and practiced is your journey. I’m showing
Step comments after the Step, so as not to influence you in advance. It is a
wilderness trek to be left to your own wits, but then you can also listen more
closely for guides, angels and teachers, always first saying: “I surround and
protect myself with the Love and the Grace of God.” Thankfully, I was taught
this practice in 1989.
P.S. If you’ve some interest due to this or other
Steps, you should go to the beginning blog post. From here you will learn about Steps to Knowledge
and can begin it on the day that makes sense; then progress as needed. You can
use the posts on this blog as a companion if it helps. They will remain in
order in the archives - one post per Step.
Often it takes 18 months to get through the Steps
once. For this blog, the pace is one-a-day, but it really makes no difference
how fast you do it, only that you begin, persist and repeat. Posts here provide
a trail that may let you have a virtual companion when and if you want one. One
may have to study alone, as I did in the beginning. There are other Steps
students blogging their experience and you might find a person more like you as
a companion, or use a number of such Steps journeys. There are options as well
through the Free School of the New Message.
