Step 95 - How can I possibly fulfill myself? (MP3) Entry for journal Step 94 - My freedom is to find my purpose.

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"How can I possibly fulfill myself?" Step 95

HOW CAN YOU POSSIBLY FULFILL YOURSELF when you do not know who you are, when you do not know where you have come from or where you are going, when  you do not know who has sent you and who will be waiting  for you when you return? How can you possibly fulfill yourself alone when you are part of life itself? Can you fulfill yourself apart from life? Only in fantasy and imagination can you possibly even entertain the idea of fulfilling yourself. There is no fulfillment here, only increasing confusion. As the years progress, you will feel a growing darkness within you, as if a great opportunity has been lost. Do not lose this opportunity to realize life as it truly exists and to receive fulfillment as it is truly offered to you.

ONLY IN IMAGINATION CAN YOU FULFILL YOURSELF otherwise, and imagination is not reality. Accepting this may at first seem like a limitation and a disappointment, for you already have designs and motives for your own personal fulfillment, whether they have been experienced or not. Your entire agenda for your fulfillment must now be brought into question, not to deprive you of anything of value, but to release you from a bondage which could only deceive and disappoint you in time. Therefore, accepting the hopelessness of your attempt to fulfill yourself opens you finally to receive the great gift which is available to you  and which is awaiting you. This great gift is meant to be given through you into the world in a way that is specific for your happiness and for the happiness of those who will naturally be drawn to you.

HOW CAN YOU POSSIBLY FULFILL YOURSELF? Upon the hour today, repeat this question and give it a moment of serious consideration, regardless of your circumstances.  As you practice upon the hour, look out into the world and see how people are trying to fulfill  themselves, both in situations that now exist and in situations that are hoped for. Understand how much this separates them from life as it truly exists. Understand how this separates them from the mystery of their own existence and the wonder of life that they are free to encounter every moment of every day. Do not allow yourself to be so deprived. Fantasy will always paint a grand picture for you, but it has no foundation in reality. Only those who attempt to fortify each other’s fantasies will attempt relationship with each other for this purpose, and their disappointment will be mutual, for which they will be inclined to blame each other. Do not seek, then, that which can only bring you unhappiness and only destroy the great opportunity for relationship for you.

UPON THE HOUR REPEAT THIS STATEMENT. In your two practice periods, enter stillness and receptivity so that you may learn to receive fulfillment as it truly exists.

PRACTICE 95: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly practice.
Note:  Do not lose this opportunity to realize life as it truly exists and to receive fulfillment as it is truly offered to you.” There is an opportunity here. It will take work. 

From the journal:
9:42 October 19 – Tuesday – at home yet – overwhelmed and behind at the office. …
6:08 p.m. At home to meditate #2 “My freedom is to find my purpose.”
6:15 p.m. Yet to start. This was a good day.
The 30 minute meditations help – though often I can’t do the full 30 minutes. …

The page – green ink underlines.

In this year, 2015 – April 5 is Easter Sunday, a holy and blessed day. From the cross, Jesus said: “Father, forgive them; for they know not what they do.” Luke 23:34 King James Version (KJV). It seems to have to applied to those who crucified him, but I came to feel it applied to all of us here on earth – “We know not what we do.” Steps to Knowledge is a means of learning what we do. Let us honor the good people on this day and let us continue our practice so we might “know what we do.”


Journal second time x2 Step 94.  This is for those who have completed Steps once. Doing Steps with only the texts, messages and your life experience, including what you may have studied and practiced is your journey. I’m showing Step comments after the Step, so as not to influence you in advance. It is a wilderness trek to be left to your own wits, but then you can also listen more closely for guides, angels and teachers, always first saying: “I surround and protect myself with the Love and the Grace of God.” Thankfully, I was taught this practice in 1989.

P.S. If you’ve some interest due to this or other Steps, you should go to the beginning blog post. From here you will learn about Steps to Knowledge and can begin it on the day that makes sense; then progress as needed. You can use the posts on this blog as a companion if it helps. They will remain in order in the archives - one post per Step.

Often it takes 18 months to get through the Steps once. For this blog, the pace is one-a-day, but it really makes no difference how fast you do it, only that you begin, persist and repeat. Posts here provide a trail that may let you have a virtual companion when and if you want one. One may have to study alone, as I did in the beginning. There are other Steps students blogging their experience and you might find a person more like you as a companion, or use a number of such Steps journeys. There are options as well through the Free School of the New Message.