Greetings All –
Step 104 - God knows more
about me than I do. (MP3)
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| "God knows more about me than I do." Step-104 |
GOD DOES KNOW MORE ABOUT YOU THAN YOU DO. That must
be obvious if you have considered yourself honestly. And yet, consider the
implications of this. If God knows more about you than you do, then would not
God’s evaluation be something that you would want to learn to investigate? Of
course it would. And would not your evaluations of yourself be necessarily in
error? In this alone you have sinned, for sin is only error. Error calls for
correction, not condemnation. You would condemn yourself and think that God would
then follow your example and render to you a greater condemnation. That is why
people have made God in their image, and that is why you must unlearn what you
have made, so that you may find what you know and so that your creations in
this world may be for good and have lasting value.
GOD KNOWS MORE ABOUT YOU THAN YOU DO. Do not
pretend you can create yourself, for you have already been created and that which
has been genuinely created is far greater and happier than the life that you
have realized thus far. It is your unhappiness that is bringing you to truth,
for it is driving you to a genuine resolution. This, of course, is true.
ON THE HOUR REPEAT THIS STATEMENT and consider it
seriously. As you do so, observe the world around you in order to attempt to learn
of the meaning of today’s idea in the world. In your longer practice sessions
in stillness, allow your mind to become quiet so that it may learn to enjoy its greatness. Give it this
opportunity for freedom, and it will give freedom to you in return.
PRACTICE 104: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly
practice.
Yesterday: Step 103 - I am honored by God.
From
the journal:
12:40
A.M. Thursday, October 28, 1999 –
I
have a great vision for the earth that I wish to give. It may be simplistic –
given the people that run the show. …
7:54
A.M. Alignment – a master concept. I’m having trouble here staying in body. I
want to go home – but my babies have to come too. They can’t/won’t for they
have their own lives here.
Align
– grow – realign – grow align – change – realign-
>Time
to actively seek a new/different job where I can carry on my learning.
Infrastructure
is treated like dirt, like it’s always been there. The regional alignment
strategy can simplify the realignment process.
Awareness
– but no joy. S2K- “I am honored by God.” But the portion/aspect of me being
honored – I do not know.
Again
the head lightens and there is the desire to leave the body and its work
behind.
…
8:40
p.m. Ready to meditate. The world is looking different these days. At 53 I
wonder if I thought I’d live this long and how boring things could get, and how
much change is behind me. I observe the growth of the Valley. I’ve played a
part, but that part is invisible. I’m not even certain what it is.
Today’s
focus, “I am honored by God,” is not for me alone – it must be true for all. In
Food Lion – parents with young children fussing – I’m irritated slightly – but
know I was once there and wonder how people looked at me, how they felt, if the
judged. So many people going about their lives. Me removed – looking –
watching.
Much was written, but what does it have to do with
the Step? Good question. Our lives proceed and the brain can work very hard to
figure things out, and be mistaken in doing so. Once again, the Step page has
much green ink and is also the journal for the day.
NNC
Journal
second time x2 Step 103. This is for those who have completed Steps
once. Doing Steps with only the texts, messages and your life experience,
including what you may have studied and practiced is your journey. I’m showing
Step comments after the Step, so as not to influence you in advance. It is a
wilderness trek to be left to your own wits, but then you can also listen more
closely for guides, angels and teachers, always first saying: “I surround and
protect myself with the Love and the Grace of God.” Thankfully, I was taught
this practice in 1989.
P.S. If you’ve some interest due to this or other
Steps, you should go to the beginning blog post. From here you will learn about Steps to Knowledge
and can begin it on the day that makes sense; then progress as needed. You can
use the posts on this blog as a companion if it helps. They will remain in
order in the archives - one post per Step.
Often it takes 18 months to get through the Steps
once. For this blog, the pace is one-a-day, but it really makes no difference
how fast you do it, only that you begin, persist and repeat. Posts here provide
a trail that may let you have a virtual companion when and if you want one. One
may have to study alone, as I did in the beginning. There are other Steps
students blogging their experience and you might find a person more like you as
a companion, or use a number of such Steps journeys. There are options as well
through the Free School of the New Message.
