Step 43 - My will is to know God. Entry for Step 42 - Review

Greetings All -

YOUR WILL IS TO KNOW GOD. That is your true will.Any other desire or motivation is to escape this, which represents your will. It is your will that has become fearful to you.You are afraid of what you know and most deeply feel.This leads you to find refuge in other things that do not represent you, and in this you lose your identity and attempt to construct an identity that is related to those things which you have sought for escape. In isolation you are miserable, but in relationship happiness is regained.

YOUR WILL IS TO KNOW GOD. Do not be afraid of your will. You are created by God. God’s will is to know you. Your will is to know God.There is no other will. All motivations other than this are born merely of confusion and fear.To know God gives God power and gives you power as well.

IN YOUR TWO PRACTICE PERIODS TODAY, in silent meditation, practice feeling the strength of your own will. Do not let fear and doubt cloud your mind.You need not try to feel the will of God. It is simply there. It only requires your attention for you to recognize it. Therefore, practice deeply by simply being present to this experience.

PRACTICE 43: Two 30-minute practice periods. 

Yesterday:   Step 42 - Review

Reviews are important. We are trying to determine our movement and change in perception. The journal, of course, is a help in this task. Going back over the past sometimes will generate a laugh.

From the Journal:

1:17 p.m. Saturday, August 28, 1999 - In the air on American Airlines en-route to Dallas, Texas to see my kids and grand-kids. ...

2:20 p.m. S2K Review - continued - 

3 p.m. Conclusion S2k is my path. I have more access to power and have recovered from my planners burnout.

3:05 p.m. "We've got to region our way out of this."

Bucky Fuller - "I seem to be a verb." Tom C, "I seem to be regions." communication."

→  Region as data structure.

 Death/birth - a cosmic pit stop -  come out needing to get back up front. We've been lapped - There is repetition
→the irreversibility of higher levels of communication.

What I was/am supposed to be doing in the world has always been part of my spiritual search/seeking. It may be yours as well. Whatever goes through your mind is fair game for the journal.The pit stop reference comes from NASCAR racing.