Step 53 - My gifts are for others. Entry from Step 52 - I am free to find the source of my Knowledge.

Greetings All -

YOUR GIFTS ARE MEANT TO BE GIVEN TO OTHERS, but first you must recognize your gifts and separate them from the ideas which restrain them, alter them or deny them. How can you understand yourself except in the context of contribution to others? Alone you can do nothing. Alone you have no meaning.This is because you are not alone.This will be viewed as a burden and as a threat until you realize the great meaning that it has and the gift that it really is. It is the salvation of your life.When life reclaims you, you reclaim life and receive all of its rewards, which far exceed anything that you could give yourself.The value of your life is consummated and fully demonstrated through your contribution to others because until contribution exists, you can only partially realize yourself—your value, your purpose, your meaning and your direction.

IN YOUR TWO PRACTICE PERIODS TODAY, feel your desire to contribute to others.You do not need now to determine what you wish to contribute. That is not as important as your desire to contribute, for the form of contribution will become evident to you in time and will evolve as well. It is your desire to contribute born of true motivation that will give you joy this day. 

PRACTICE 53: Two 30-minute practice periods. 


The page serves as a journal here. Green is the first time through; blue the second. 

From the Journal:

7:55 A.M. Tuesday, Sept 7 
> Knowledge - the gift of my true life. This is the gift I want. 

11:45 A.M.> Am I waking up in the middle of my life?

12:35 p.m. At work. Knowledge in the world is brought forth through relationships.

2:05 p.m. Lots to do, over whelmed - yet paralyzed. Where do I intend this to go? Sustainability seems like a joke. What of it is sustainable? Keep breathing - do no harm/little harm/harm yourself only. 

Right here in the middle of my life I don't know what to do - It could be super simplified. 

Is it just caffeine deprivation?
I am just one and can't be doing w/o others.

Is there a multilayer universe -  
soul worriers and soul doers?

These were the entries of the day. Existential issues.