Step 306 - I will rest in Knowledge today. Entry for Step 305 - I feel the power of love today.
Greetings All –
IN KNOWLEDGE YOU WILL FIND REST AND REPRIEVE from the world. In Knowledge you will find comfort and assurance. In Knowledge all that is truest in life will abide with you, for in Knowledge the Christ and the Buddha are one. In Knowledge all the great achievements of the great Spiritual Emissaries unite and become revealed to you. In this, their promise is fulfilled, for they have given themselves for this purpose. Thus, the Knowledge that you receive today is the fruit of their giving, for Knowledge has been kept alive in the world for you. It has been kept alive by those who have received and contributed it. Thus, their lives provide the foundation for yours. Their giving provides the foundation for your giving. Their acceptance of Knowledge strengthens your acceptance of Knowledge.
THE PURPOSE OF ALL TRUE SPIRITUAL TEACHING is the experience and the manifestation of Knowledge. This can imbue the simplest gift and the greatest gift, the most mundane action and the most extraordinary action. You are in great company, you who practice Knowledge. You receive the gift of the Christ and the Buddha. You receive the gift of all true Spiritual Emissaries who realized their Knowledge. Thus it is that your participation today is given strength and foundation as you carry on the great purpose of keeping Knowledge alive in the world.
TODAY UPON THE HOUR and in your two deep meditation practices, rest in Knowledge, which is living within you now.
PRACTICE 306: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly practice.
Yesterday: Step 305 - I feel the power of love today.
This Steps says powerfully: “ALLOW LOVE TO BE IN YOUR LIFE TODAY, for Knowledge and love are one.”
My reaction the first time through, considering the last line, was humility in response to the promise: “Here your Teachers will become more active for you, for they will prepare you to contribute this effectively so that you may fulfill your destiny in the world.”
In 2009, my focus fell on: “your sense of separation from life will disappear,” which led to a diagram.
The journal entry, upon review, ran a bit longer than my first post showed, so this has been expanded. Accurate dating in the journal is important. You don’t know how well you’ve done, unless you do something like this.
7:35 p.m. Wednesday, May 17, 2000 – I relish the time in stillness. Perhaps, like a "runner's high" there is a "meditator's high." After being still in the woods, it is hard to come back into the world – (of course – food, clothing, shelter, are nice). Were it that meditation was my work in the world…I'd live off others – as I do now.
I'm not highly motivated for my job – the work pillar – is it only balancing out?
7:55 a.m. The birds chirp outside, the world is newly green in spring. It is good to be at this point in Steps, so my soul blooms with nature. Today's Step is: "I feel the power of love today." Even though I'd scanned/red ahead all the lessons for the next two weeks – I was surprised by this Step. Knowledge is love – that was what I felt last night – that's what I feel in stillness. It was important to be in the woods yesterday and I followed the urgings to be there.
I don't know how I fit this into my mundane life – which holds no draw to rouse me in the a.m. I'm ready to go back to my Ancient Home, except I would abandon David and Sarah, and others – but they are my true life anchors –
→ "I am to be prepared to contribute more effectively."
8:30 p.m. On the log → my 2nd practice – It was not full of love as was the noon meditation. I'm very hurt by events at the office – yet I do not see how I could have gotten out. I made errors – and they are being corrected I suppose. My job is a little problem – it has become intermediate – but eventually will become stable or disappear.
I’ve truly learned – and perhaps that is worth it. I just never seemed to have any options. Why was that so? The Trail here has been a great refuge – and of course I've had unlimited coffee and chocolate.
If Knowledge is love – then what is love? To have this moment is an experience of love. If I were a tree – this is all the world I'd need – though I couldn't really exist w/o the rest of the biosphere.
There are plenty of folks in the world involved in one world/global/one planet promotion who might partner with me.
I've not paid enough attention to the ritual of the region – well – yes I have – people just don't see it.
On the bright side – my file folder 1 – 7 system is working well at home for self-management. What really is important? I don't know.
11:45 PM. Hurt and angry – on the practice day – "I feel the power of love today." –
I regret – ---
I regret ---
I regret marrying M.E. – It was all fear of being alone.
It is good to have a strong Step. Catharsis is not an easy process. Let us continue.
P.S. At Step 306, we are into Part Two of Steps, so if you’ve found this and find some appeal in this or other Steps, you should really go to the beginning blog post. From here you learn about Steps to Knowledge and can begin it on the day that makes sense and then progress as needed. You can use the posts on this blog as a companion if it helps. They will remain in order in the archives - one per Step.
Often it takes 18 months to get through the Steps once. For this blog, the pace is one-a-day, but it really makes no difference how fast you do it, only that you begin, persist and repeat. Posts here provide a trail that may let you have a virtual companion when and if you want one. One may have to study alone, as I did in the beginning. There are other Steps students blogging their experience and you might find a person more like you as a companion, or use a number of such Steps journeys. There are options as well through the Free School of the New Message.