Greetings All –
THE WORLD YOU SEE IS ATTEMPTING TO BECOME one community,
for this is its evolution. How can the world evolve when it is fragmented? How
can humanity advance when it is opposing itself? How can the world be at peace
when one faction competes with another? The world you see is like the mind that
you experience within yourself—warring with itself, yet without purpose or
meaning. The world you see is attempting to become one community, for all
worlds where intelligent life has evolved must become one community.
HOW THIS WILL BE ACHIEVED AND WHEN IT WILL BE
ACHIEVED is beyond your present scope, but as you look upon the world without judgment
you will see the yearning in each person to join. You will see the desire for
separation to be ended. The world’s pressing problems merely exemplify its
predicament and call for the creation of one community in the world. This is so
obvious if you but look. As you yourself are becoming one person and healing
all wounds within yourself as a student of Knowledge, so is the world
attempting to become one world and to heal all of its wounds and all of its internal
conflicts and separation. Why is this? Because Knowledge is in the world.
AS YOU ARE DISCOVERING KNOWLEDGE WITHIN YOURSELF, remember
that Knowledge is latent within each person, and even in its latency it is
casting its influence and extending its direction. The world contains
Knowledge, too. It is a larger representation of yourself that you look upon. Thus,
as you become a student of Knowledge and are able to objectively recognize your
preparation, you will begin to have a true view of the evolution of the world.
Here your viewpoint will not be distorted by personal preferences or fears, for
the evolution of the world will simply be obvious to you. The evolution of the
world is obvious to your Teachers, who look upon the world from beyond its constraints.
But you who are within the world, who feel the influence of the world and who
share the world’s doubt and uncertainty, must learn to look upon the world
without these restraints as well.
THE WORLD IS ATTEMPTING TO BECOME ONE COMMUNITY. Remind
yourself of this upon the hour, and in your two deeper practice periods engage
your mind actively in attempting to understand today’s idea. Think of the
problems of the world and the solutions that they call for. Think of the
conflicts in the world and the requirement that they be settled. Realize that
if any individual or group of individuals opposes these resolutions and
requirements, this will induce them to wage war against the world and one
another. The conflicts you perceive are merely the attempt to preserve
separation. But the world is attempting to become one community and regardless of
the resistance to this, it will relentlessly attempt to do this, for this is its
evolution. This is the true desire of all who dwell here, for all separation
must be ended and all contribution must be given. This is your purpose and the
purpose of all who have come here.
REMEMBER, YOU HAVE BEEN CALLED and you are
responding to your one true purpose. In time, others will be called and they
will respond. This is inevitable. You are accomplishing the inevitable, which will
take a great deal of time and many steps. Knowledge is your source and
Knowledge is the result. Therefore, you can be certain of the final outcome of
your actions. Regardless of how the world will proceed in its preparation and
its difficulties, it must accomplish this one true goal. Thus, you can proceed
with certainty.
IN YOUR LONGER MEDITATIONS ATTEMPT TO PENETRATE
today’s idea. Do not be complacent here, but actively engage your mind as your
mind was meant to be engaged. Try to recognize your own ambivalence about the
world becoming one community. Try to recognize your fears and concerns about
this. Try to recognize as well your desire for one community and your
understanding that this is necessary. Once you take inventory of your own
thoughts and feelings concerning today’s idea, you will further understand why
the world is in its current predicament. The world has a certain destiny and a certain
course to follow, yet it is ambivalent about everything. Thus, the world itself
must unlearn ambivalence, as you are now learning to do, and your
accomplishments will assist it in its great undertaking, for this is your
contribution to the world.
PRACTICE 309: Two 30-minute practice
Yesterday: Step 308 - Review
Reviews are getting more serious; taking more time.
The journal entries ran long. At one point I write: “When I did the 2nd
practice on 5/17 I did not end in a good place. I want to leave that anger
behind.” There is a healing and a conflict resolution aspect to the Steps. I’ve
expressed the goal here, even though the connection to this process itself is
not made.
As this is a review, I found this comment: “12:57 p.m. The
Shenandoah Valley is not my home. I am uncomfortable in the world. I see
potential, but am poor at communicating the vision.” That I recorded my lack of comfort in this way was a surprise to me. An
answer to it comes in the Steps ahead. As we move through the next 56 Steps, you may find answers yourself. Will you be able to recognize them? It may be that your journal entries need to be even longer than mine. The journal
continues:
7:42
a.m. Saturday, May 20, 2000 –
Going
to Civil War Battlefields Commission today. Still in PDC pain –
My
ego bruised, I fear for my financial well-being. My small mind has put me in a
bad place – rehashing the past…
How
will we (local) use the region to our advantage.
Loyalty
is local – the region must become local in the minds of those who inhabit it.
---
How
do I move forward – not stay paralyzed. I have my S2K – I have my greater
mission.
→ What is needed
– vision and investment. Have I been able to do that? No I've been alone –
personality flaws isolate me.
I
was warned – I did not know how to fight. I love my enemies – I emulate the
Christ –
Politicians
are fighters – I am not.
What
is wrong with my life?
Spirit
answers: Transition – do the mundane work and learn the large lessons. You are
not alone.
I
have developed a unique perspective – my path is speaking and publishing.
Until
Knowledge gives me something else – this is what my focus shall be.
Looking
for regional efficiency.
10/16/2001
– Age 55 –
The
Commission has been successful, but they have no idea how. Further Virginia
alignments will increase the viability of the model – everyone needs a regional
strategy – when they locate their home – where can I sell my labor. The
region's the thing. My vision is so strong my mundane life interferes – in
moving to work it I'm stymied by the lack of resources. With S2K I'm aware.
I first
went to the PC, email and the web – for "new ideas" – the learning
org being one in particular.
(Movement
is no longer local – it is regional within the context of the earth) – (the
butterfly wing flaps that lead to a tornado in the Midwest). The butterflies
intent was not or tornado –
- Like
trying to understand traffic flows, a larger model yields better results. The
question is placement of boundaries and data collection needs.
From
S2K – These are my prayers
• Nasi
Novare Coram
• Novre
Novre Comey Na Vera Te Novre
• Mavran
Mavran Conay Mavran
• Nome
Nome Cono Na Vera Te Nome
I am
a beginning student of knowledge. This is more important than being a student
of the world's confusion and ambivalence. The world is inherently conflicted.
The laws are required to manage activity of the separated.
- Right
now I feel like the stone that has been rejected.
---
Local
='s my world> How big is it?
–
True public service leads to no personal profit
11:55
a.m. Down by the Shenandoah River – after LFCC presentation off the Tourism Destination
IST program. A little credit – for me, but my career is in flames.
I do
not know how to fight. I've never known how to fight. I can't defend – I never
cultivated those skills.
In
nature – its creatures fight, defend, attack.
I've
not done that.
Consequently
I'm harmed?
12:57
p.m. The Shenandoah Valley is not my home. I am uncomfortable in the world. I
see potential, but in poor at communicating the vision.
My
future – my $2100 investment in a computer, website and software – is within 5
feet of me. My mind is paralyzed by the processing of the pain. I must work… I
must write… I must speak… I am free to do so.
I
will leave when I am ready.
I’ve
experienced bias and discrimination.
I
forgive those who err against me.
Long
practice – who is with me?
1:42
p.m. Meaning, purpose, direction – I am an eternal soul – being w/o question.
My meaning – what I stand for is cooperative creation. My purpose is to develop
the language of integration that balances the fragmentation of local creation.
My direction is taking the greater perspective to greater numbers of people.
This is my current expression.
My
human vehicle – Thomas Joseph Christoffel – the being that causes this ink to
flow is currently battered by events of teaching and attack. He can’t sort one
from the other very well.
–
Let the review begin.
–
Plan – do – Making Outlook 2000 work for you. After 15 years I have the
software tools to implement Plan – Do. This is a gift.>
2:23
p.m. Once again – begin. Out in the woods I’m not distracted. I’ve held up the
review doing things for my life. That is ultimately good.
---
Step
295 “I am now penetrating the mystery of my life.”
“Allow
the manifest to be manifest.” – I’m doing that; it hurts now. The text goes on
to say, “…and you will engage yourself in the world with a practical emphasis and
a concrete approach.” – this is what I’m struggling to find.
2:53
p.m. – I must go on to learn the tools to prototype my vision. For whatever
personal reasons, I can’t find the team I need.
3:24
p.m. If I’d known life was this much work, I’d not have come.
Step
298 text “Knowledge speaks of a greater life within the world and
beyond. It is this greater life which you must now entertain.”
→ This is not a
picnic. Greater is not easier. Is there fighting involved? Spiritual war is the
worst – it Kills the Soul.
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4:15
p.m.@ Step 300 – “I receive all my spiritual family today.” –
Reading
my journal from 5/12 about spiritual family took me to my relationships with
women – all of which seem bad – and I ask why?
Looking
at the lesson – I don’t know where this came from. It is a problem. My love for
Cindy? What is there? No romance for sure. Too much conflict. There is no
recovery – no forgiveness that I can feel. Women created the Ancient Home? Take
off your shoes.
For
creation to have a home – there must be a context. I do not understand. I am
confused.
text
– Step 300 – “true community exists in service to Knowledge.”
>
Where is my true community here on earth?
“All
accomplishment in Knowledge is the reclamation of relationships…” (Based on my
political relationships I’m losing ground.)
5:12
p.m. Reviewing my journal for 5/13 – I find very good thoughts, ideas. Where
did they come from? Why aren’t they circulating in the world?
As
much as this PDC experience has been publicly painful, it has been productive in
these pages – giving me more and more insight.
5:45
p.m. Step 302 – as I start to reread it for the review, seeing myself here – I
feel so alone – diligently studying S2K – doing my life, seeking to reclaim
knowledge – yet alone.
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Step
305 – “I feel the power of love today.” The text says – “…you will only wish to
contribute that which you have received.” I have received much in these
journals – in my life. Finding an audience seems to be the problem. Lots of
messages face that – it doesn’t stop the messengers.
Text
says: “Here Your Teachers will become more active for you, for they will
prepare you to contribute this effectively so that you may fulfill your destiny
in the world.”
I am
finishing this volume. This review is not complete. Whatever my contribution
is, I am ready for more active teachers.
When
I did the 2nd practice on 5/17 I did not end in a good place. I want
to leave that anger behind.
1:30
a.m. Sunday, May 20, 2000 – Still thinking of the long practice – --- I’ve a
clear vision of RI – one that is getting more clear by the day. Who will join
me/who can I join? That is my anxiety now. This book ends –
This was a very long entry. I took out what I
could. Steps practice is taking up a good share of my life. That may be true
for you as well. Let us keep it up.
NNC
P.S. At Step 309, we are into Part Two of Steps, so
if you’ve found this and find some appeal in this or other Steps, you should
really go to the beginning blog post. From here you learn about Steps to Knowledge and
can begin it on the day that makes sense and then progress as needed. You can
use the posts on this blog as a companion if it helps. They will remain in
order in the archives - one per Step.
Often it takes 18 months to get through the Steps
once. For this blog, the pace is one-a-day, but it really makes no difference
how fast you do it, only that you begin, persist and repeat. Posts here provide
a trail that may let you have a virtual companion when and if you want one. One
may have to study alone, as I did in the beginning. There are other Steps
students blogging their experience and you might find a person more like you as
a companion, or use a number of such Steps journeys. There are options as well
through the Free School of the New Message.
