Step 319 - Why should I be afraid when a Greater Power is in the world. Entry for Step 318 - There is a Greater Power at work in the world.
WHENEVER YOU FALL INTO THE DARKNESS OF FEAR, you are withdrawing from Knowledge and entering the darkness of imagination. Whenever you fall into the darkness of your own fear, you are denying the reality of a Greater Power in the world and are thus losing its beneficence for yourself. Whenever you fall into the darkness of your own fear, you are following the teaching of fear, which runs rampant in the world. You are allowing yourself to be a student of fear. You are allowing yourself to be governed by fear. Recognize this and you will realize that this need not be, that you have the power to redirect your studenthood and that you have the ability to re-enter true preparation.
THINK OF THIS SERIOUSLY TODAY. Why should you be afraid when a Greater Power is in the world? This Greater Power which you are now learning to receive is the source of your redemption. What can you possibly lose as this source becomes recognized, as you learn to come into relationship with this source and as you serve this source and allow it to serve you? What can the world take from you when the source of Knowledge is within you? What can the world do to itself when the source of Knowledge is within the world?
THIS AWARENESS CALLS FOR YOUR COMPLETE PARTICIPATION in the world and your complete service to Knowledge. It calls for your complete engagement in contributing to others because you are a vehicle for the Greater Power in the world. Yet, in this active participation you understand as well that it is only a matter of time before all minds awaken to the light of Knowledge within themselves. This can take a very long time, but time is with you and in patience and in confidence you may proceed, for what can undermine your preparation and your contribution but self-doubt and fear? What can dissuade you from proceeding with certainty and complete engagement but the doubt that Knowledge exists in the world?
THEREFORE, WHENEVER YOU ENTER INTO FEAR, practice this day recognizing that a Greater Power is in the world. Utilize this recognition to bring yourself out of fear by remembering that a Greater Power is in the world and by remembering that a Greater Power is in your life. Think about this on the hour and in your two deeper meditation practices, re-enter your sanctuary where in stillness and in confidence you receive the Greater Power that is in the world. Here you must realize that your preparation requires that you step away from fear and darkness and that you step forward into the light of truth. These two activities will confirm your nature and will betray nothing that is real within you or within the world.
AS YOU LOOK UPON THE WORLD WITHOUT JUDGMENT and as you look upon yourself without judgment, you will see that a Greater Power is at work. This will restore happiness to you, for you will realize that you have brought your Ancient Home with you and your Ancient Home is here as well. This will lift the burden of fear, the oppression of anxiety and the confusion of ambivalence from your mind. Then, you will remember why you have come, and you will devote your life to contributing that which you have come to give. Then, your life will be a statement of happiness and inclusion, and all who see you will remember that they too have come from your Ancient Home.
PRACTICE 319: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly practice.
The notion that there is a true Greater Power is powerful, but not necessarily understood this early in the Steps. I first encountered “Higher Power” in the 12 Step program Al-Anon in 1982. Are they the same? No, but they are related.
From the Journal:
6:56 a.m. Tuesday, May 30, 2000 – Breathing stretching morning start – it warms you up.
7:20 a.m. I do not know the world, but I know Knowledge is present. I'm weak and afraid, and in hiding –
7:55 a.m. Practice #1 – I'm one pair of God's regional hands in the world.
– People are not regional by nature. They are local – local is comfortable – the known, beyond local is unknown. Make the region local.
11:10 p.m. A strange, yet in some respects, good day. I spent about 90 minutes on the PC tonight – checking out my ambivalent world. Worked until 8 PM. – so – little energy once home. Practice 2 did not go deep.
Step 318 – "There is a Greater Power at work in the world" is comforting. The text says: "You who are now learning to give up self-condemnation and to escape ambivalence will see the efficacy of your own Inner Guidance casting its spark of life upon the world."
– When is stillness ambivalence – and drawing self condemnation?
– the text says we must receive and express the Greater Power – the relationship with Knowledge is: Thus, it is through your reliance upon Knowledge and Knowledge’s reliance upon you that your union with Knowledge is made complete."
I Know, believe & accept all of this – yet do not have energy to do…
A long, tiring day. Let us continue.
P.S. At Step 319, we are less than two months from the end – Step 365. If you’ve found this and find some appeal in this or other Steps, you should really go to the beginning blog post. From here you learn about Steps to Knowledge and can begin it on the day that makes sense and then progress as needed. You can use the posts on this blog as a companion if it helps. They will remain in order in the archives - one per Step.
Often it takes 18 months to get through the Steps once. For this blog, the pace is one-a-day, but it really makes no difference how fast you do it, only that you begin, persist and repeat. Posts here provide a trail that may let you have a virtual companion when and if you want one. One may have to study alone, as I did in the beginning. There are other Steps students blogging their experience and you might find a person more like you as a companion, or use a number of such Steps journeys. There are options as well through the Free School of the New Message.