Greetings All –
FEEL THE PRESENCE OF YOUR TEACHERS TODAY who abide
with you and oversee your preparation as a student of Knowledge. Feel their
presence today and you will feel your own presence, for you are joined together
in this presence that you feel. Remember that you are not alone, and you will
not become isolated in your own thoughts. You will not become isolated in your
own fearful considerations.
UPON THE HOUR EXPERIENCE THIS PRESENCE, for this
presence is with you upon the hour. Feel this presence no matter where you are today,
whether you are at work or at home, whether you are alone or with another, for
this presence is with you wherever you go.
IN YOUR TWO DEEP MEDITATION PRACTICES allow
yourself to experience the presence of love, which is the presence of
Knowledge, which is the presence of Wisdom, which is the presence of certainty,
which is the source of your purpose, meaning and direction in the world and
which contains for you your calling in the world. Come into the proximity and
into the experience of this presence in your deeper meditations. Do not neglect
this, for here you will experience self-love, self-worth and true inclusion in
life. Take this presence with you today and receive this presence in your
deeper meditations, and you will know that the presence is with you every day.
PRACTICE 333: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly
practice.
From the Journal:
12:30
a.m. June 13, 2000 – Tuesday – My brain gets more insane – I approach
Knowledge, then my life runs away.
I
can create value. I have used the system to do so – why isn't that seen &
supported?
7
a.m. On the back porch – I'm angry – angry because of fear – I fear I erred,
missed many opportunities and have no good options.
Is
this mid-life crisis – I'm not going to live with comfort?
My
ideas still grow – even though I'm tired and negative.
People
are depending upon me for a lot. Can't let them down.
I feel my life is over – dead ended – and Step 332 says – "I am only beginning to comprehend the meaning of Knowledge in my life."
I feel my life is over – dead ended – and Step 332 says – "I am only beginning to comprehend the meaning of Knowledge in my life."
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9:03
a.m. At work. Lots to do – my passion is coordination across boundaries. Really
– the boundaries don't exist – but they've been created.
Perhaps
a quadrant analysis would work.
7:05
p.m. Back porch – Train on the nearby track – flying through. I could to be
closer – glad that house fell through.
Had
lunch with Bill L… today. Hadn't seen him for two years. Told him of my fate at
PDC and my goals. He was supportive – a nice response. I'll need to meet with
him again.
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– I
need to create my next business using what I've learned. It is a greater
challenge than I imagined. It often takes all my energy just to get through the
day – little left when I get home.
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– so
here I am – $$ limbo – what do I do?
First
I want to Know my errors so I don't make them again. I'm not here to save the
world. I shouldn't take on that cross.
9
p.m. On the orphan path. I finished my second Practice? When did I do the first?
"I'm only beginning to comprehend the meaning of Knowledge in my
life."
The
quadrant book is interesting – makes me feel disappointed – yet I know why I
have the result I have and which errors put me off. I also know that I didn't
know – and fear kept me from following intuition. I need to Know the Knowledge
part of the quadrant…for my part.
→ my skill – Adding
value with geography? – What is my product? What will a customer buy?
I wonder if I’m having a mid-life crisis; my life errors
have led me to a – dead end, yet Step 332 says: "I am only beginning to comprehend the meaning of Knowledge in my
life."
At age 53, “only
beginning;” is this possible? Though
I’m not fully aware of how I am being assisted at this time, the Steps are
saving my life and have been doing so throughout this period. I continued and
suggest you do the same. Therefore, let us continue.
NNC
P.S. At Step 333, we are 32 Steps from the end –
Step 365. This is not the place to begin this Practice. If you’ve some interest
due to this or other Steps, you should go to the beginning blog post. From here you will learn about Steps to Knowledge
and can begin it on the day that makes sense; then progress as needed. You can
use the posts on this blog as a companion if it helps. They will remain in
order in the archives - one post per Step.
Often it takes 18 months to get through the Steps
once. For this blog, the pace is one-a-day, but it really makes no difference
how fast you do it, only that you begin, persist and repeat. Posts here provide
a trail that may let you have a virtual companion when and if you want one. One
may have to study alone, as I did in the beginning. There are other Steps
students blogging their experience and you might find a person more like you as
a companion, or use a number of such Steps journeys. There are options as well
through the Free School of the New Message.
