Step 90 - Today I will make no assumptions. Entry for Step 89 - My emotions cannot dissuade my Knowledge.

Greetings All –

Step 90 - Today I will make no assumptions.

MAKE NO ASSUMPTIONS TODAY as you devote one more day to the reclamation of Knowledge. Make no assumptions about your progress in learning. Make no assumptions about your world. Practice this day having an open mind that bears witness to events and that seeks to learn. Enjoy the freedom that comes without assumptions, for mystery will be a source of grace for you rather than a source of fear and anxiety as you learn to receive it.

IN YOUR HOURLY PRACTICE and in your two longer meditation practices today, where you practice stillness and receptivity, you can experience the value and the power of these words. Make no assumptions this day. Remind yourself of this all through the day, for making assumptions is merely a habit and when the habit is released, the mind may exercise its natural function without its former restraints.

PRACTICE 90: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly practice.

Yesterday:  Step 89 - My emotions cannot dissuade my Knowledge.

From the Journal:

12:30 A.M. Thursday October 14 - Why up so late?
I don't know? I want to get the Knowledge link permanently. It will take movement (time).

Step 89 - My emotions cannot dissuade my Knowledge. 

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11:21 p.m. I want Knowledge. I want my spiritual family. 

This had been a rough day, so my need level is high.  In the Steps book, the note in green is " - Stillness Good."

 
Blue ink is the second time though. A difficult time, but thanks to Steps practice I was able to adapt and survive. I hope you aren't in such a position, but if so - it is good that you are doing Steps.

NNC

Step 89 - My emotions cannot dissuade my Knowledge. Entry for Step 88 - My Higher Self is not an individual.

Greetings All –

Step 89 - My emotions cannot dissuade my Knowledge.

EMOTIONS DRAW YOU LIKE THE STRONG WINDS. They pull you from place to place. Perhaps in time you will be able to understand their mechanism more thoroughly. Our  practice today is to emphasize that they do not control Knowledge. Knowledge does not need to destroy your emotions. It only wishes to contribute to them. In time, you will come to understand a great deal more about your emotions, and you will realize that your emotions may serve a greater purpose, as may your mind and your body. All things that have been a source of pain, discomfort and disassociation, when brought into service to one power — which is the One Power — will then become vehicles of expression serving a greater purpose. Even anger serves a greater purpose here, for it shows you that you have violated Knowledge. Though your anger may not be directed towards another, it is simply a sign that something has gone wrong and that correction has to be made. You will understand the source of grief, and you will understand the source of all emotions in time. 

PRACTICE UPON THE HOUR and at the beginning of your two longer meditation periods, repeat today’s idea and then enter into stillness. Today learn to value that which is certain and to understand that which is uncertain, to recognize that which is cause and that which obstructs cause but which may in time serve cause itself.

PRACTICE 89: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly practice. 

Note: "Even anger serves a greater purpose here, for it shows you that you have violated Knowledge. Though your anger may not be directed towards another, it is simply a sign that something has gone wrong and that correction has to be made."

Yesterday:  Step 88 - My Higher Self is not an individual.

From the Journal:

7:55 A.M. Wednesday, October 13 - ...

The S2K is what I need _ since I'm "indolent" to lazy to care about my own life. 

8:18 A.M. ...

People would benefit by seeing that they are operating in a geography greater than the political boundaries  of their "place of residence."

Choose life - choose our region - you are one with life - but in the physical you can only be in one place. That has mostly been perceived as local based on governance/control/boundaries.

8:40 A.M. Step 88 - My higher self is not an individual. It is good to know I'm not totally alone. I remain in body and seek to do my best. 

9 p.m. ... Now - 30 min - 

→able to do 23 min. - the point - to be still & receptive -

My work was important to me as was Steps. Both get covered in the journal. You might do the same.

NNC

Step 88 - My Higher Self is not an individual. Entry from Step 87 - I will not be afraid of what I know.

Greetings All –

Step 88 - My Higher Self is not an individual.

THERE IS OFTEN CONFUSION CONCERNING YOUR  HIGHER SELF and your Spiritual Teachers. This is very hard to resolve from the point of view of separation. But when you think of life as an inclusive network of evolving relationships, you then begin to experience and recognize that your Higher Self is indeed part of a greater fabric of relationship. It is the part of you that is not separate but is meaningfully bonded with others. Therefore, your Higher Self is bonded to the Higher Self of your Teachers. They are without duality now, for they have no other self. You have two selves: the Self that has been created and the self that you have created. To bring the self that you have created into service to your True Self joins them together into a meaningful marriage of purpose and service and ends internal conflict forever.

TODAY UPON THE HOUR REPEAT YOUR AFFIRMATION and feel its impact. In your two longer practice periods, use your affirmation as an introduction to your practice in stillness and receptivity. 

PRACTICE 88: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly practice.

Note: "You have two selves: the Self that has been created and the self that you have created. To bring the self that you have created into service to your True Self joins them together into a meaningful marriage of purpose and service and ends internal conflict forever."

Yesterday:  Step 87 - I will not be afraid of what I know.

 

From the Journal:

7:17 AM Tuesday, October 12 - 1999 - 

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S2K 87 I will not be afraid of what I know! I have experienced the stillness and will return to it. I know the trick is to choose life. I Know this existence is temporary and imperfect. I could be a character in a story, but I want to be a whole being who is a contributing soul of a living family. 

I do not want conflict on trauma. Things I know when presented to others causes conflict in them because of their world view.

Virginia is a unique place to learn what I'm learning. 

→ Living well - Regionally 

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> This is what I Know - 

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10:56 A.M. At work - region is a concept - local is a twin concept, but preferred. - Make every region local. 

11:30 A.M. Why have I been so afraid all of my life? It is a mystery to me. It is not a neurosis of abuse - I've kept safe. I've been the Ninja - so - what I know can help actualize the beautiful planet. I'm realistic/fearful (?) about my relations - as set out by my trio of watch dogs - ... I invest in capacity.

By networking we expand intelligence. Vision - manifestation - movement required. If we cooperate in a way that tests and builds strength - then the quality of manifestation will increase.

This I know. How do I communicate that better in actions?

9 p.m. I will not be afraid of what I know. I look at all that is and know it is temporary. Here on the edge that I see easily with my mind's eye. I can walk in the woods and know, yet there is a bigger place - a wider view --- I'm just one - no fear, know knowledge.

  

A challenging Step. There were many notes in 1999, connecting the idea to my work. Today, quite a bit of writing as well. Please do a journal when you can. 

Also, notes on the Steps page.

As the page demonstrates, blue ink being the second year, being fallible was my great concern. Different times, a Step has a different impact in ones life.  

NNC