Greetings All –
THERE IS OFTEN CONFUSION CONCERNING YOUR HIGHER SELF and your Spiritual Teachers. This is very hard to resolve from the point of view of separation. But when you think of life as an inclusive network of evolving relationships, you then begin to experience and recognize that your Higher Self is indeed part of a greater fabric of relationship. It is the part of you that is not separate but is meaningfully bonded with others. Therefore, your Higher Self is bonded to the Higher Self of your Teachers. They are without duality now, for they have no other self. You have two selves: the Self that has been created and the self that you have created. To bring the self that you have created into service to your True Self joins them together into a meaningful marriage of purpose and service and ends internal conflict forever.
TODAY UPON THE HOUR REPEAT YOUR AFFIRMATION and feel its impact. In your two longer practice periods, use your affirmation as an introduction to your practice in stillness and receptivity.
PRACTICE 88: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly practice.
Note: "You
have two selves: the Self that has been created and the self that you
have created. To bring the self that you have created into service to
your True Self joins them together into a meaningful marriage of purpose
and service and ends internal conflict forever."
From the Journal:
7:17 AM Tuesday, October 12 - 1999 -
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S2K 87 I will not be afraid of what I know! I have experienced the stillness and will return to it. I know the trick is to choose life. I Know this existence is temporary and imperfect. I could be a character in a story, but I want to be a whole being who is a contributing soul of a living family.
I do not want conflict on trauma. Things I know when presented to others causes conflict in them because of their world view.
Virginia is a unique place to learn what I'm learning.
→ Living well - Regionally
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> This is what I Know -
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10:56 A.M. At work - region is a concept - local is a twin concept, but preferred. - Make every region local.
11:30 A.M. Why have I been so afraid all of my life? It is a mystery to me. It is not a neurosis of abuse - I've kept safe. I've been the Ninja - so - what I know can help actualize the beautiful planet. I'm realistic/fearful (?) about my relations - as set out by my trio of watch dogs - ... I invest in capacity.
By networking we expand intelligence. Vision - manifestation - movement required. If we cooperate in a way that tests and builds strength - then the quality of manifestation will increase.
This I know. How do I communicate that better in actions?
9 p.m. I will not be afraid of what I know. I look at all that is and know it is temporary. Here on the edge that I see easily with my mind's eye. I can walk in the woods and know, yet there is a bigger place - a wider view --- I'm just one - no fear, know knowledge.
A challenging Step. There were many notes in 1999, connecting the idea to my work. Today, quite a bit of writing as well. Please do a journal when you can.
Also, notes on the Steps page.
As the page demonstrates, blue ink being the second year, being fallible was my great concern. Different times, a Step has a different impact in ones life.
NNC
