Step 79 - I will allow uncertainty to exist today. Entry for Step 78 - I can do nothing alone.

Greetings All –

I WILL ALLOW UNCERTAINTY TO EXIST TODAY. ALLOWING UNCERTAINTY TO EXIST means there is great faith. This means that another form of certainty is arising. When you allow uncertainty to exist, it means that you are becoming honest, for in truth you are uncertain. In allowing uncertainty to exist, you are becoming patient, for it requires patience to regain your certainty. In allowing uncertainty to exist, you are becoming tolerant. You are stepping back from judgment and becoming a witness of life within you and of life around you. Accept uncertainty today so that you may learn. Without presumption, you will seek Knowledge. Without judgment, you will realize your own true need.

UPON EACH HOUR TODAY, repeat today’s statement and examine what it means. Examine this from your own feelings and examine this in light of what you see in the world around you. Uncertainty exists until you are certain. If you allow this to exist, you can allow God to serve you.

PRACTICE 79: Hourly Practice.

Hedge your bets in a risky world. Try to minimize uncertainty, that's what the markets were supposed to be doing. What happens if one allows uncertainty to exist? 

From the Journal:

9:13 A.M. Sunday - October 3, 1999

I Have such a good life, so much potential for success - working with others. 

10:12 A.M. At the office - I can do nothing by myself. 

Yet I'm the prime do-er. I'd like to complete the work here, but there seems to be too much to overcome.

12:52 p.m. - May 29, 1997 - the period of high optimism - Regional Strategic Plan - it crashed - there was no buy-in to the vision - the folks are much harder to get on board.  - 

3:30 p.m. Stop the world -

6:45 p.m. At Su-ne. At 7 p.m. contact with Teachers -

Work - the office - all the limits of life on earth in its depressed mode. There is some light now speeding up things. Some where there must be people who learn. 
Alone I can do nothing. I am not alone. 

... a growing tree in the forest of humanity - 7:10 p.m.

12:21 A.M. Monday, October 4, 1999 
I worked until 10:30-45 came home - had wine, ate food, paid bills.

I can do nothing by myself, yet I'm alone most of the time. 

At this time, I was not a happy camper. Yes, you can put your unhappiness and other ugliness in your journal.

By the notes in my Steps book, key points were underlined in 1999, that's the green, but doing Steps again in 2009, I note that I did not understand the Step when I first read it 10/3/99. Deep long term study will be of benefit. Be patient and do the work; that is what I had to do.