Greetings All -
Step 29 - I will observe myself today to learn of Knowledge.
ON THIS SPECIAL DAY OF PRACTICE, observe yourself throughout the day, maintaining awareness of your thoughts and behavior as much as possible.To develop this quality of self-observation, you must be as free of judgment as possible, for judgment disables you from being observant.You must study yourself as if you were someone else with whom you can be far more objective.
WE SHALL PRACTICE ON THE HOUR TODAY. Each hour you will need to check in to see your thoughts and to observe your current behavior.This constant self-checking will enable you to become far more involved in your current experience and will allow your Knowledge to exercise its beneficial influence upon you to a far greater degree. Knowledge knows what you need and knows how to serve you, but you must learn how to receive. In time, you must learn how to give as well so that you may receive more. Your receiving is important because it enables you to give, and giving is the essence of fulfillment in this world. But you cannot give from an impoverished state. Therefore, your giving must be genuine, born of the overflowing receptivity that you have cultivated within yourself, within your relationships with others and with life.
EACH PRACTICE PERIOD NEED ONLY TAKE SEVERAL MINUTES but should be given your full attention.You need not close your eyes to do this, though if it is appropriate, it will be helpful.You may practice in the middle of a conversation with another. In fact, there are very few
circumstances that will prevent this moment of introspection. In practice you simply ask yourself, “How do I feel?” and “What am I doing now?” That is all. Then feel if there is something you must do that you are not doing. If there are no corrections to be made, continue on with what you are doing. If there are corrections to be made, make them as expediently as possible. Allow your inner guidance to influence you, which it will do if you are not governed by impulses, fear or ambition. Observe yourself this day.
PRACTICE 29: Hourly practice.
This is the first practice that is done on the hour - an hourly practice. This will become a common practice. Being aware on the hour takes some doing. A chime on your watch, phone or computer can help. You might want to do this first one without any assistance just to see how it goes.
Yesterday: Step 28 - Review
The review this time was quite important, as the prayer it begins with had one phrase jump out at me: "I accept the miracles of my life as a demonstration of the presence of Knowledge."
From the Journal:
5:40 p.m. Aug 14 - Start S2K - Review - The focus and exercises have helped me. I become even smaller and more humble in the world. Every interaction is subject to error and likewise learning. I'm getting caught up a little at work with this focus.
In my past I do not find huge, big, ugly errors. Staying with M.E. - even that marriage has led to growth - and the children. Even though I would have loved bright - college bound kids, I've learned much more through David, Sarah and separation, divorce, single-parenting, special ed, and being open to help those young minds grow.
Early on my radar for problems has helped me avoid things and situations that were harmful. This my risk management view.
In reality, this was the first cut on this issue. I sound way more together than I actually was. Let us observe ourselves - Step 29. That will be fun.
NNC
