Step 127 - Today I will not try to get even with God. Entry for Step 126 - Review

Greetings All –

DO NOT TRY TO GET EVEN WITH GOD by being a miserable person, for God only knows you as part of Creation. Do not try to get even with God by making the world destitute, for God created a world of beauty and opportunity. Do not try to get even with God by refusing to love or accept yourself, for God still knows you as you are. Do not try to get even with God today by ruining your relationships for your own selfish purposes, for God understands your relationships as they truly exist and understands their greater promise as well. You cannot get even with God. You can only harm yourself.

THEREFORE, ACCEPT THAT YOU HAVE LOST THE BATTLE against God. In your defeat is your greatest victory, for God has never lost you, though you have lost God temporarily in your imagination. Your love for God is so profound that you are as yet afraid of it, for it represents the greatest power within you that you can possibly possess. You must learn of this through direct experience. Therefore, do not try to get even with God today by reinforcing an idea about yourself based solely upon error and assumption, for Knowledge is with you. You are the happy victor in your own defeat.

IN YOUR TWO PRACTICE PERIODS TODAY, repeat this idea and then attempt to think about it. Our practices today will be engaging the mind in exploration and analysis. This is a useful application of your mind. Think about this message and all of your ideas surrounding it, and you will begin to understand your own current belief system. You will be able to understand this objectively. Then, you will be able to work with it, for the mind is fixed in a certain structure until it is utilized for other purposes. Do not accept this structure as your reality, for the outward manifestation of your mind is a structure that you have imposed upon it. Yet, its real inward harmony and nature seek only to be expressed. To enable this to happen you must have an adequate structure in the mind to enable the mind to express itself in the physical world without restraint or distortion. It is towards this, then, that we will work today.

PRACTICE 127: Two 30-minute practice periods

To get even with God – that is what many want to do. On occasion, we might have had that goal ourselves.

Yesterday:  Step 126 - Review

From the Journal:

5:51 A.M. Saturday, November 20, 1999

Awake early. Greater Community – it makes all the sense in the world to me from the spiritual perspective. The Spirit is the parent and manifestation is the child, and it is one. Creative spirits must share manifestation experience in order for sustainability. Sharing is a no brainer. Creating a framework to understand and utilize greater community is my mission.

Thoughts/Rules for regions

6:35 p.m. Out of the woods. After finishing my review at Little Bear I noticed the light of the nearly full moon. It was not cold and I was in no hurry. I had corn and tobacco – it was time to do the offering to spirits of the land, the trees and sky. I started it at Little Bear doing the seven directions in this order North, east ( moon), south, west, above, below, here. (8 points in the woods + home for 9 points.)

10:28 p.m. in bed early … I shall get my life to be simler – day by day.

Quite a bit of writing this day, but not all is shown here. You will note that I had been influenced by Native American traditions as I sought to honor the land. My family heritage is German and Scotch-Irish. These were tribal societies long ago, but the historic ceremonies for honoring the land were lost in the civilizing of Europe. So, when the land needed to be honored, I used ideas from the Native American traditions I’d seen. Some do not like a white man doing this, but when the land calls to be honored, what can one do when their own tribal traditions have been long lost, but seek inspiration from surviving tribes? That’s what I did privately – and told no one, only recording it in this journal.

The Steps book has both green ink (1st time) and blue ink (2nd time). As I learned through Steps, other teachings and perspectives I had studied and absorbed receded as practices, but their spiritual value for those earlier times remains in a place of honor along the path. Something close to this may be true for you.