Step 139 - I have come to the world to serve. Entry for Step 138 - I need only follow the steps as they are given.

Greetings All –

YOU HAVE COME TO THE WORLD TO SERVE, but first you must receive. First, you must unlearn what you have taught yourself so that you may reclaim that which you have brought with you. This preparation is essential for your success and for your happiness as well. Do not think that through understanding alone you will be able to recognize and give your true gifts. Your participation is your preparation, for you are being prepared to participate in life. Thus, we draw you more and more into the mystery of life and the manifestation of life. In this way, you will be able to treat the mystery as mysterious with wonder and you will be able to treat the manifestation of life practically and with objectivity. With this, you will be able to be a bridge from your Ancient Home to the manifest world. Across this bridge the Wisdom of Knowledge may express itself, and you may find your greatest fulfillment.

PRACTICE YOUR RAHN MEDITATION TWICE TODAY with great depth and concentration, and remember your idea upon the hour so that you may utilize all occurrences today on your own behalf.

PRACTICE 139: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly practice.

Note the challenge: “First, you must unlearn what you have taught yourself so that you may reclaim that which you have brought with you.” This is the process underway now in the Steps. Is it to your benefit? It was for me – that is my witness. Is life perfect? No, but it has become much better.

From the Journal:

12:50 A.M. December 2, 1999 – Thursday

Worked until 11:15 p.m. last night on RTOP . Today was to be the big changeover plan, but Frederick Co. didn’t show. Lots going on… Really lean we are these days. S2K> GCW-I – Stillness is God, movement is everything else. How far can we push the envelope; when do you end up with a new envelope?

9:30 p.m. Preparing for the second practice session. Even though this is late – I’d not risk skipping one. That did not work Tuesday. Tomorrow I give a lecture at SU [Shenandoah University] – don’t know which slides to use.

The journal is a place for insights, but mostly for mundane reflections from the day. What slides should I use? Is that a question for Knowledge? The notion of “right-brain” thinking is that problems should be considered, then forgotten about. The brain is a computer that rund background programs. At some point in the future the solution appears when you are driving down the road, taking a walk or otherwise not engaged in trying to solve the particular problem. Is Knowledge part of that invisible, but tap-able part intuition, or is it even greater, giving what we need, when needed, if we have ears to hear, eyes to see?