Greetings All –
YOU GIVE TO THE WORLD THROUGH YOUR OWN DEVELOPMENT at
this time, for you are preparing to give a greater gift than you have ever
given before. Thus, each day that you undertake the practice according to each
step that is given, you give a gift to the world. Why is this? It is because
you acknowledge your value and your worth. You acknowledge your Ancient Home
and your Ancient Destiny. You acknowledge those who sent you and those who will
receive you when you leave this world. All this is given to the world each time
you practice sincerely, upon each day, upon each hour. This is a greater gift
to the world than you can yet understand, but in time you will see the total
need that it fulfills.
THEREFORE, YOUR PRACTICE IS A GIFT TO THE WORLD,
for it gives that which you are affirming within yourself. What you affirm
within yourself you affirm for all individuals, in all circumstances, in all
worlds and in all dimensions. Thus, you affirm the reality of Knowledge. Thus, you
affirm your Ancient Home while you are here.
UPON THE HOUR, GIVE TO THE WORLD through your
practice of giving. Remind yourself of this. In your two longer practice
periods, give yourself completely into stillness and silence. Give of your
heart and give of your mind. Give all that you realize you can give, for this
is a gift to the world. Though you cannot as yet see the result, have confidence
that this giving will extend beyond your own mind and will touch all minds in
the universe, for all minds are truly joined in reality.
PRACTICE 149: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly
practice.
Yesterday: Step
148 - My practice is my gift to God.
From the Journal:
Sunday,
Dec 12, 1999
Tom
Peters – the client approach – I started this years ago. It was difficult for
people to see. When Greg came in he had a different approach – and blasted my
style. He assumed money would follow proposals – the base market was too thin;
it remains thin. The model is still valid.
11:30
A.M. How am I doing now? After reading Tom Peters I see that I need better clients
– better relationships. I don’t expect to be in a control position – it is
really for the discrimination of the knowledge I have received and wish to make
visible in the world. “The search for the perfect region.”
“The
Whole Enchilada”- local/the kitchen where the enchilada was made is
whole/local/→ a steps
process.
4
p.m. In Winchester at Wendy’s – enroute to Wal-Mart. My practice – is my gift
to God. My life is God’s gift to me. I look south and see a patch of rainbow in
the clouds as the setting sun hits the moisture/water crystals in the cloud. I’m
thankful that earth and sky is there to be seen and I’m here with eyes and
heart to see it. I am in the world – clearly – and seek to do God’s will. Conflict yes … but such is manifestation. I am here to
give.
8:25
p.m. Right this minute I hate my life. I’ve felt this way since I got home at
6:30 p.m. I should have gone to work, but did not. … I read the Wash Post –
noting in it – well a few tidbits. … I feel very helpless – in my own life and
for Sarah and David.
I
made progress by doing an initial description of the local/regional scale –
→ local is whole
→ regional is sub-whole
People
might do something with that. I am so unhappy it stinks.
- Mistakes
→ …
→ …
→ …
→ …
Warren
Buffet – we seek pattern to understand events. Some aspects of life are too
complex to have patterns – like the stock market, so the real patterns to look
for are those of success within the greater complexity. Those that one way or another
have the fundamentals right and thus are sustaining /growing. This looks wise
as does Tom Peters focus on good clients. These are things I could do – if I
knew a reason to do them.
My
needs are minimal. I need this conflicted environment to tease/torture out my
thinking on regions. It is a painful birthing.
Writing
soothes the unhappy beast.
11:28
p.m. 12/12/99 – a day of truth. … [argument described]
>
I was reading ahead the Steps for next week. Step – 153 “…all life is
communication.”
All
this helps me to understand my path…
T-om
Su-ne
What is the purpose of all this? From this
particular day, I left out a lot. Your life may be a lot better than mine at
this time, or something you can’t relate to, or worse. The purpose is to show
something close to honestly speaking to oneself in a journal, so progress can
be made.
At this time in my career, I am trying to apply business thinking to my work and to the need to invest - thus the study of Tom Peters and Warren Buffet. Did I ultimately learn what I need from the world - not exactly, but Steps was useful - as it enables a different type of thinking.
Steps to Knowledge clears up many things, sets
others in perspective, and always leaves plenty of undefined and mysterious
space. Skip over what may bore you, but look for the thread of strengthening
due to the Steps.
The Steps page has some ink: “How can I be
the gift?”
We be learnin - right?
NNC
