Step 151 - I will not use fear to support my judgments. Entry for Step 150 - Today I will learn to learn.

Greetings All –

DO NOT USE FEAR TO SUPPORT YOUR JUDGMENTS of yourself and the world, for these judgments are born of your uncertainty and anxiety. Thus, they lack the foundation of Knowledge. Thus, they lack the meaning and value that only Knowledge can bestow. Do not rely upon your judgments of yourself and the world. As you withdraw from them, you will realize that their source is fear, for you have only been trying to comfort yourself with your judgments, to provide a false security, stability and identity which you feel you are lacking. Therefore, be without a substitute for Wisdom and Knowledge, and allow Wisdom and Knowledge to arise naturally.

UPON THE HOUR REPEAT YOUR STATEMENT, and consider it in light of all things that are occurring today. In your two deeper practices, consider the meaning of today’s idea as you think about it carefully. Apply your mind in a state of work as you attempt to penetrate the meaning of today’s lesson. Do not be comforted by premature conclusions. Investigate deeply with your mind in your practice periods. Use your mind actively. Consider many things within yourself while maintaining a concentration on today’s idea. If you do this, you will understand many things about Wisdom and ignorance, and your understanding will be born of compassion and true self- appreciation. For only from a place of self-love can you offer correction to yourself and to others.

PRACTICE 151: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly practice.

From the Journal:

12:35 A.M. Dec 14 – My life has to change.

1:45 p.m. At home. A successful trip to Joe May’s this morning to seek MIF (Minimum In-stream Flow) funding. I’m tired – late to bed last night and – I have to wrap Sarah’s presents.

By considering the journal, not much of a day. No clues from the Steps page. The 12:35 A.M. entry suggests a bit of stress. A good reason for undertaking Steps in the first place – to figure out this life thing.